Must Read: Mechanic

7 years ago

Must Read: Mechanic

I became fat, my belly was so grown, there was a time I tried committing suicide. All because my grandmother got angry with me, she said some heartbreaking words to me, she really abused me that day. She did all these out of anger, she really ridiculed, insult upon insult. Why she got angry was because I was unable to some house chores and couldn’t follow her to the farm, so she met me, a 7 months old pregnant girl sleeping, I was so weak and tired that day.

I don’t know what came over her that day, she just flared up and began to say hurtful words to me, I was just crying bitterly, I could feel sorrow in my life. I was so disappointed at my grandmother cos i took her as my comforter and confidant, I felt bad, does that mean my grandmother now despise me too? I tried committing suicide by hanging myself in the room, I believed I had nothing left in this world, everybody has turned their back on me. My family has totally abandoned me. Thank God my grandmother quickly can to my rescue, she saw me doing this evil act. She was scared, she began to beg me, promising she was never going to abuse me again. She informed my parent about it, instead of them to have pity on me, they rained insult on me, calling me devil’s child, calling me a blacksheep.

Few months later, I gave birth to a healthy baby boy, I never visited any health center for antenatal or whatsoever. I gave birth to my son in the room, not in the hospital, it was some old women that helped me during labour. When I saw my son, I was so happy, tears of joy, I couldn’t believe that this little thing came out of my body. All my sorrow turned to joy, I carried my baby in my arms, I was just full of smiles.

There was no naming ceremony, but a reverend in my grandmother’s church helped with the child’s dedication, my son was named Emmanuel. Throughout this period, my parent hardly call me, they hardly send me money, they abandoned me, they didn’t even bother to check on me or their grandchild, maybe because he’s a bastard. They stopped visiting home for Christmas. I felt rejected, a rejected stone, is it because my parent are pastors is that why I was neglected? I became focused, determined to survive without my parent, my grandmother stood by my side, she really helped me, she advised me to go back to school, o continue my education, she promised to give me money, support me. I declined cos I don’t want to disturb her, how much was she earning from the petty things she was selling? But my grandmother insisted I must go back to school…