My girl Neighbour -S01 E20

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My girl Neighbour -S01 E20

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 20

I've been standing on Emma's door for 5 minutes now.

I am so nervous that it felt like my heart will explode.

To be honest, I don't know what to tell her, how to explain to her why I kissed her.

I don't even know what I felt for her, I mean sure, clearly I have something for her but this something, is it enough to justify my actions?

Is it Love?

All I know is what I'm feeling for Emma is much stronger than what I felt for Kate, like way too stronger. And I don't know how to control it, especially now that I got to taste her lips.

Those sweet lips that keeps me awake for the past few nights.

That even if I regretted it, because it cost me my friendship with Emma, I still can't take it away from my mind and my dreams.

It felt like our lips are perfect with each other, it didn't feel wrong, at least for me. But for Emma, well she hasn't spoken to me in 3 days so I'm guessing the opposite for her.

But now she wanted to talk to me, I wonder what she will say to me.

Will she tell me that she hate me for what I did?

That it shouldn't happen again?

Or worst, that she doesn't want to see me again?

The fear builds up in my chest as well as the pain, damn, that thought scares the hell out of me.

I composed myself, cleared my throat and knocked 3 times onto her door.

If she doesn't want to see me ever again, I needed this meeting to be over now so I can start moving on with my life, it's gonna be hard but I will try my best to do it.

I waited patiently for her to open the door, it's taking long but it was okay for me, I still have few seconds to prepare myself before I face her.

Just in time, Emma opens the door and there she is, though she's expecting me, she still seems surprise to see me.

We are just here standing, staring with each other.

Looking at her big hazel eyes made me realize that I missed her more than I thought.

I feel like I was under her spell just by looking at her eyes, did she even miss me too?

I know it's foolish for me to think about that but I can't help it, there's something in her eyes that I can't put a finger on.

Was it sadness? Longing? Was she miserable for the past few days just like me?

I tried to scratch it away from my mind, I don't want to get my hopes up and then ended broken.

"Come on in, Jen." She broke the silence and I was back to reality.

I missed her voice too, the way she calls my name. Everybody calls me Jen but there's something more whenever it was her calling me or am I just imagining things?

She left the door open and walk towards the couch, the TV was on and there were chips on the coffee table. Just like the last time I was here, but the beer was missing.

She was just here in the living room when I knocked, was she preparing herself as well that's why it took her long to open the door?

I shook my head as different thoughts keep flowing in my mind.

I silently close the door behind me and followed her in the living room.

This time, I didn't pull up the stool, I just stand there and waited for her to talk.

She was sitting on the couch and I can't help but notice that she was wearing a short shorts, it was a little bit high the moment she sat, is she torturing me?

Her full rounded legs are flaunting in front of me and she has no idea that it's affecting me, like much.

I wandered my eyes around the room, looking at anything but her.

I'm not lusting over her, it's just that, she has that affect on me and I would really love not to get distracted by that, especially in this situation.

"Aren't you gonna sit?"

She was looking at me when my eyes turned to her.

"Uhm, no."

Hearing my answer made her eyebrows furrowed and her head tilted a bit, it was like she's trying to read me but she wasn't able to.

"You wanted to talk, Em?"

I'm not in a hurry, I just wanted to get this meeting over with.

My knees are very week and I feel like I will collapse any time soon, maybe I should consider sitting? No, I don't want to sit, so when she said something very hurtful for me, it will be easy to run from her. It's foolish but I don't think I can take it when she throws hurtful word towards me.

"Oww-kay!" she was confused I can tell, but she decided to let it go.

"About what happened..."

"I know, it was an in the moment thing and it won't happen again, Emma."

I felt myself grow hot as I said her name, I don't know why I didn't let her finish.

I looked down, afraid that she was going to see the blushing in my face as I tell that lie.

Truth was, I wanted it to happen again, it was wrong I know. But if I will listen to my heart, that's what I want.

I started walking towards her, sat on the coffee table in front of her and I felt myself grow nervous.

"I mean.. Did you like it?

I don't know what possessed me to ask her that and where is this boldness coming from.

I can see in her eyes that the question caught her off guard, not wanting to believe that I had asked her that.

Confuse written all over her face as I continue to stare at her, her face doesn't hold any denial. She was just purely confused and intrigued maybe?

I hope she wouldn't lie. And even if she tells me that she didn't like it, I will accept it. But I'm hoping for the opposite.

"Well.. yeah but-"

For the second time, I didn't let her finish as my lips found hers again, and this time this kiss wasn't just an in a moment thing.

My hand found her face and it tangled itself in her hair, pulling her face closer to mine. Her smell was so intoxicating and her lips, God, it tasted so damn good.

I went down from the coffee table and pressed myself against her, wedging my body between her legs.

Where is this coming from? This bravery and boldness. I never thought I have it in me.

My lips are attacking hers, not in a brutal way but more in a passionate way, and she was letting me, she didn't even pull away when I tried to deepen the kiss, maybe that's why I got this confidence in me.

I felt her soft lips against mine, I kissed her bottom lip, then the top, and my lips began to travel along her jaw.

Oh God..

Her hand gripped my hair as I hit her sweet spot and kissed under her ear.

She tried to stifle a moan but failed, it sounded so good that it made me even hotter.

I don't want to pull away from her but I needed to breath and I'm sure she does too.

Her big hazel eyes staring at me shyly, her face was flushed.

"Jen."