Deal With The Devil - S01 E103

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Deal With The Devil - S01 E103

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 103

❝Pleasure yourself... and think of Colt❞

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Apparently... somehow... in some way... Colt was able to get me to take a shower. It was a long shower as I just sat down in the shower and allowed the water to fall softly down on top of me as I cried, blending the salty tears with the water and forever be lost. Sitting there as the room has been filled with steam as the hot water continues to fall down my back, warning me up but that doesn't matter to me, nothing matters to me anymore, nothing but him, only him.

A knock on the door breaks me from my thoughts and makes me look up, as I had been looking down at the white in the bathtub for a long time but I was looking at it but I was not seeing it. There is a difference in looking and seeing and my mind was just so lost in my own mind. "I was thinking, now that you're alone. I'm going to bring something into the room. Pleasure yourself" Colt voice rings through the door and then the door opens and he pushes something inside but I don't see him. 7

Though, I could tell that he wanted to peek, but my knees are up against my chest and it doesn't show anything. Looking at the box but I can't see inside it, I stand up from the bathtub and step out of it and to the floor that instantly starts to heat up my feet and my toes as I walk over there. Water drips down from my body and onto the floor but that doesn't bother me as I walk to the closed door and the box that he brought me but as soon as I see that it is a box that I know rather well.

For the last couple of days, Colt has been trying to get me to use the dildo that he gave me for Christmas. I've never even touched it but I still have looked at it and when I walk over there now, I wonder if I should use it. I wonder if I will want to use it. I don't want to lose my virginity to a dildo. I would want it to be with Sebastian, the man that I've fallen in love with and I want it to be special. My first time with the man that I love. 39

I pick up the box and put it aside as I will not be using it. I shake my head and turn back to the bathtub where I take a quick shower and then turn off the water and pick a towel to dry my body and then I dress myself in some fresh underwear and new pajamas instead of the ones that I've been wearing for days. When I'm done I try to brush through the birds nest that is on top of my head as the hair and it's not pretty.

It's hard and it takes some time but I'm able to brush through the tangles and I was able to make it better than it was. Looking at myself in the mirror to see that my eyes are hollow and my cheeks have sunken a bit and I look like a mess. I look horrible right now and it can only get better if he were here. Everything would be must clearer if he were here, he would make things clearer. Looking at myself is hard as being without him makes me feel empty inside and this pain inside me shows perfectly on my face and in my eyes. 1

"I don't hear any moaning and I know you can moan because I've heard it. Wait... are you thinking of me while you do it?" Colt asks, his voice breaks me away from looking at myself and I walk over to the door and I open it. As soon as the door opens Colt falls down to the ground. Raising an eyebrow at him which only makes him innocently smile at me which makes me shake my head and walk over his body to the bed where I sit down and go under the covers. 5

Lying down into the same position I have been for the last couple of days on the bed, I stare at the wall again. My mind empty yet so much in thoughts at the same time that it is strange to think of. Colt sighs as he sits on the bed. "Tonight I'm taking you out into the world which was the only reason for why you wanted to win this deal and you did want to be free. Now be free" Colt says and I turn to look at him. He has been trying to get me to be with Sebastian for days and now he doesn't, why?

But, despite that he is still right. My freedom was the reason for the reasons that I did this and that is the reason for I left him and now I must embrace the freedom. Perhaps it will be all right but I know that it will never be the same as it would be with him and I know my life can never be the same again but maybe it doesn't have to be. Maybe it doesn't need to be the same, just different.

I slowly nod my head and watch as he jumps up in excitement at it and I roll my eyes at him. I wonder why people do this. Fall in love I mean. Because love can only lead to pain and heartbreak. Love is hurtful and it hurts more than any agony that can be presented to the body. I wonder why people would willingly do it, why people want to fall in love only to get hurt and feel this horrible pain that I'm going through now. I hate this pain and I never want to feel it again but without this pain I would've never realized just how much I miss and love him.