Wife Swap - S01 E22

6 months ago

Wife Swap - S01 E22

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 22

Esme Pov

I forgive you.

I hate how calmly he said those words. His eyes cold and empty. Not the same as i how he would look at me even at my absolute worse. He perceived me like a creature that was below his moral correctness, something he felt sorry diminishing me to nothingness.

Mason calls me non stop, i walked out on him and his family. When it comes to them he is too protective even when they are on the wrong. He can't stand to hear one complain about them, i wonder how Athena survived all those years in such an environment. I assumed since he claims to love me that, he would try to be on my side until the two months are over as we figure out our confusion.

I had never envisioned having an affair or even being attracted to Mason. I found him to be okay in terms of looks, but loved Rome's features more. I never felt the chemistry between him and Athena. She seemed too eager to please and just painful to bear. I can't point to a specific thing that lead to my affair, I found myself feeling dissociated and used social media as an escapism and started liking his post which most of the times were just jokes of sexual innuendos. Then he would sent me similar memes to my WhatsApp and just joke about all things sexual. It was fun and liberating that i could be this person with him. It got to the point when i would post a sexy photos on my WhatsApp status and limit viewership on everyone except Mason so he would be the only one to see it.

I had a rough idea what he liked and soon he started flirting with me and i returned it. I don't think fell for him but i liked his attention on me. He was like a virtue -less Rome, the main difference between them being Mason hide his insecurity behind a façade of pseudo perfection. While Rome is confident and comfortable with with who he is. He never bothered to stare at some girls ass as walked by, pretend to be cool to fit in with the crowd.

Some nights Mason would pretend he came to spent time with Rome while when he was about to leave he would signal to me and i would pretend that i needed to pick something outside and Mason would find me waiting. It should have felt wrong, but those nights the stars winked in approval as kissed me like he meant it and i would just weep at its beauty.

I should have been thinking of Rome, but i didn't. As each years passed they seemed to unravel bits of myself that i couldn't understand. I felt empty and unfulfilled. My thirties were fast approaching, I had achieved nothing. I couldn't face my friends as their lives seemed perfect online , but here i was stuck and i had to wonder each day, is this it? Is this all?

Mason made me feel alive again. I could dream again as he asked those questions that were forgotten after the first date in the talking stage. What have you always wanted? It was ages since i spoke about my dreams. Yes, my online sales job did pay me averagely yet i still felt like just a delivery girl. Dropping orders at pick up points. It sucked!

I thought marrying the smart guy was a guarantee of a soft life. It was at first then Rome declined all the promotions he got. He is a minimalist and gets content too easy. On my side, i will always need more. Mason too has similar views, thus complicating the matter.

Mason is not the man for me yet a selfish part of me doesn't want to see him with Athena.

I have hated her from the first time i met her. Mason brought her over and he had planned this big event of how he was going to propose to her. She barely said anything to me, picky with everything i had prepared and despite me trying so hard to ensure that i at least made something she liked. She still didn't touch anything.

I have wandered everywhere buying time so that i find Mason's mother has left. I hate it! hate, hate it! I hate being there, especially waking up to his family that reminds me that Athena was okay with them and did everything without a complain.

"Where have you been?" Mason stands up from the seat when i walk in.

"I am not your wife." I say angry.

"Wow!" He says in disbelief.

"I am going to bed, not that you care." I callously state.

"We are not done talking." He steps on my way.

"Get out of my way, i am not Athena to be easily intimated."

"Don't say her name." He warns.

The first night of the wife swap i was both excited and afraid of losing my marriage or Mason. We made love that night but that quickly changed in the days that followed and i don't know what triggered it. Mason ignores me but expects me to adhere to whatever his mother advises him.

Going to the park today i hoped that would push Rome to speak and maybe it would lead to a discussion of him asking me to come back. I can't go back home, my father, a dedicated church leader will disown me and i have no means to survive on my own.

I look into his dark eyes, "I think your wife and Rome are sleeping together. I saw them very handsy today." I say hoping that will push him more to want his wife. I am sure when he snaps his finger Athena will be back here in a blink.

Darkness clouds him, "She is my wife." It is what he says and i get confused.

"I will prove it to you." I say hoping Senna did take photos of them.

"I have not asked you to." He says trying to sound confident that Athena would never betray him but i know he is boiling inside and if i say more he will eventually burst. However i have seen that side of his and i know just when to stop with a mad man.

He doesn't even notice as i leave. I must also reclaim my husband back.

But once it started i couldn't stop it. I felt like it should be happening, perfectly right. How could it be possibly wrong? when it is all i wanted.