My girl Neighbour -S01 E17

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My girl Neighbour -S01 E17

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 17

What did I just do?

I pulled back from Emma, her face was flushed and her eyes were wide with shock.

Oh God, I did it again. For the second time, I ruined the greatest friendship I ever have.

I backed away from her, just in case she decided to slap me.

"E-Emma. I-I'm so sorry... I didn't... I didn't mean..."

She was still in shock, didn't say anything and just held up her hand.

What have I done?

"Emma." I felt my lips move and heard myself called out her name but it was different now, this was a lot more personal... More intimate.

Her eyes found mine and I knew she was upset or was she? Her reaction was more shocked than the other, I couldn't really tell.

She stood up and walked towards her bedroom and I let my eyes fall to the floor.

She left me.

My heart was hurting, knowing that this could be the last I could see her or even talk to her.

How can I be so stupid, repeating what had happen between me and Kate, going on that path again though I know for sure that this, with Emma will hurt a lot more than what I felt before with Kate.

But, she didn't even pull away from that kiss and for the second time I swear that she kissed me back, how could she leave me like this?

I rested my back against the sofa, letting my heart soak in its own misery as I glanced on the closed bedroom door.

I should leave. I gathered all the strength I have left and walked towards the door.

As soon as I reached my bedroom, I crawled to my bed not wanting to leave it anytime soon.

As I stared into space, I found myself thinking about Emma and how I fucked up big time.

I don't even know what possessed me to kiss her.

It's just that... I felt myself drowning just gazing at her big hazel eyes, she was so beautiful.

When she put her hands on top of mine, my skin was burning under her touch.

And when I looked at her slightly parted lips, I lost myself and now I have fucked up.

I decided to throw myself in the shower, turning on the hot water and just stood there thinking about how soft her lips are, if she would let me, I could kiss them forever.

I sat on the tub, my hands covering my face. I don't know what to do or what to feel.

All I felt was pain and regret.

The pain when she just left me there, not saying any word. I wouldn't complain if she would curse me, I just wanted to hear her say anything or maybe slap me.

And I regretted it, even though it was the best kiss in the world.

Just thinking about it, my legs still felt like a jell-o.

I finally got out of the shower, put my pjs and curled up under my sheets.

I couldn't keep my mind off of Emma. The kiss and what might tomorrow will bring for us, or is there gonna be a tomorrow?

I woke up feeling like shit. I felt the pang of loneliness inside my chest as I realized what had happen last night yet I couldn't help but wonder what was Emma doing today.

I wanted to see her so bad I wanna cry. I wanted to see if she was okay because she didn't give me the chance last night, she just left without giving me the chance to explain.

I was still lying on my bed, the image of me kissing her kept replaying in my head, how I had cupped her face between my hands so gently and how bad I wanted to do it again. Her lips, just thinking about how soft her lips are... God! How I wish I hadn't pulled away ever.

I think it's been an hour since I woke up and day dreamed about my neighbor, I looked at the time, its 11:30 in the morning and I need to get up from the bed before my Mom comes and made me.

With no interest making my bed I went down straight to the kitchen where my Mom was cooking. She always comes home before lunch so she could cook for me and bring some for Dad.

I pulled out the chair and sat there without saying anything.

"Honey are you okay?" My Mom was looking at me intently, worry is across her eyes as she came to sit with me. As she caressed my back I felt myself wanting to confide with her and just cried on her shoulder but I can't. She doesn't know anything about my sexuality and I'm not sure if I am ready to tell her now. I don't think I will be able to take it if she will not accept me.

"I-I'm fine Mom. Just have this terrible headache." I couldn't even look at her, afraid that she'd see me lying.

"Are you sure? I'm your Mom, you could tell me anything, you know that right?" Her voice was so soft and so encouraging.

I wish I could tell you Mom.

I gathered the strength to look her in the eye and smile at her, "Just a headache Mom."

I know the smile I had given her was weak but that's all I could muster and I am really relieved that she let it go but before that, she hugged me so tight. "I am here baby when you're ready."

I watched her stood up and went back to what was she doing before I came, what does she mean by that? Does she know I'm hurting?

"Are you hungry? I made you breakfast earlier, it's in the fridge, lunch is not ready yet." She busied herself in the kitchen as I made my way to fridge and took out the food container. I placed it in the microwave and went over to my Mom. She startled when I hugged her from behind.

"Jesus..." I giggle when I heard her.

"Thanks Mom, I love you."

She turned to me and hugged me back.

"I love you too, Kiddo." She smiled at me and placed a kiss on the top of my head.

I felt a little better knowing that my Mom is on my side even if she doesn't know anything yet and I thank her for not pushing it.

For now, I will be okay.