Deal With The Devil - S01 E36

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Deal With The Devil - S01 E36

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 36

❝A fight none shall forget❞

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The kiss is possessive and rough but at the same time it's also sweet, gentle and passionate. When we break away from it, I look into his beautiful emerald green eyes and it's strange to think that those eyes were the same eyes that I used to fear once. While that fear is still there but dormant, I find them beautiful and filled with things that is hard to see but they are there. I can tell. He pulls me harder into his chest, as if trying to protect me or something, I can't be sure. 8

Yet on the other hand being in his arms makes me feel safe and protected and I don't mind them around me, I find myself not minding him. But, then reality takes over and I'm reminded by what happened tonight, and how that made me feel like. "I-I need to go" I whisper to him as I try to break the hug but he doesn't allow me to. "No, you're staying with me tonight" He tells me in a stern voice, and a tone that I know not to fight with. Somehow I can tell that tone is how he gets people to do what he wants. 4

I open my mouth to speak but he begins to pull me inside and I close my mouth. He holds my hand tightly but not too tight, yet enough for me to feel like he's angry at something. At me? I don't know. I should be angry at myself because I just kissed him. I kissed the man that I'm trying to not fall in love with. "I'm not staying with you tonight, you disgust me!" I yell at him as I snatch my hand away from his grip. Ignoring the fact that my hand craves to feel his again.

My body betraying me completely as I feel myself longing to feel his touch again, to feel him touch my skin and feel better and good almost. Though my mind knows better. I back away from him, even when my heart feel like it wants to be with him once again but my heart doesn't get to choose, I do. He looks offended almost, though he deserves that. "Don't act like a child" He says and walks closer to me but I continue to back away. Now, I'm the one that is offended. 12

"A child? Really? Yeah, I'm a child. Because I'm married to a man that I don't love, who continues to cheat on me and gets angry and throws anger tantrums when he doesn't get what he wants. Yeah, I'm the child here" I tell him sarcastically. I'm angry and I'm hurt, but I'm allowed to be. Sebastian's eyes show nothing but hurt and while my heart pains for it, I don't let him know that. Not showing how much I just want to hug him, not showing him what feelings are inside me and how much they pain to see him like this. 47

Though he might be hurt, he also shows anger. But I'm not backing down, not now nor ever. "Yes, you are the child. Because you can't even behave like a wife is supposed to. I've never even slept with you" He throws at me and I roll my eyes. "Guess what, jerk. It's the twenty first century and women don't have to do everything that a man says and I don't have to sleep with you if I don't want to and believe me I never will. Besides, we did sleep together... just not in the way you're thinking" I tell him angrily.

Sebastian isn't the only one that can get angry. "Furthermore, don't you have a woman waiting on you, where you can sleep with her all you want, and touch her in the way that you want?" I ask him. The very thought of it pains my heart but the anger is outweighing the pain and the hurt inside me. My anger shines through me and when I don't get angry very often, it is hard to stop myself. "Fine, you can sleep out here while I will be warm in bed with a woman that actually wants me!" He angrily yells at me and then he turns around and walks inside. 114

Slamming the door behind him and I hear it lock, I break down into tears and fall on my knees. Knowing that I'm going to be sleeping outside in the cold, wearing a dress that is not that warm either. Regretting everything that I just said and still wanting to yell at him more, having more words to speak and yell at him. A couple of moments pass before I stand up and walk over to a tree and sits down. 46

The tree shields me from the cold wind but it does nothing to the cold air around me and I shiver. I hadn't realized how cold I was before now, I'm freezing. Shivering and shaking from cold. I'm scared and I'm hurt. Not to mention I'm angry at him. The tears don't stop coming and I don't try to. All of this is tearing me apart from the inside out and the pain inside me is just too much to handle. I though I would be strong enough to fight this pain and agony inside my heart but I'm not strong and I never will be.

With tears staining my face and fresh tears rolling down my face, I close my eyes after I lie down on the grass and just try to sleep. It will soon be over and I will be in the heat once again. My stomach growls from hungry but I ignore that as I try to focus on the positive which is rather small at this time. Soon, I start to feel myself falling into the darkness as it consumes me whole and I can only dream of heat and food that waits for me. And then I'm in deep slumber with that on my mind.