Little Lucy - S02 E25

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Little Lucy - S02 E25

Read Story: SEASON 2 EPISODE 25

A WOMAN’S HEART IS SO PURE, YOU CAN BREAK HER HEART AND SHE WILL STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERY BROKEN PIECE.

I read that line over and over again from a post I saw online.

I recalled the good times Collette and I had shared together.

And also the bad times.

Despite everything that’s happened between us, I still love her with every broken pieces I’ve left in me.

It hurts Soo deep to Know we’re Never going to be together. It hurts. It really hurts.

I missed her already. I really really do.

They told me not to be a lesbian. But you know when you’re kissing a girl and it’s good and soft and she runs a hand through your hair and you feel her smile into the kiss.

That’s Collette. That’s how she makes me feel. No one has ever made me feel that way. No one.

Fúck I’m gay. Why didn’t I realize it to now?

I wished above all things I wasn’t gay. I wished I hadn’t met Collette. I wished she hadn’t stolen my kiss. Now I’m all blue because she wants me to change.

But how do I change? How else does she expect me to give up on the love we’d shared?

From my bedroom, I heard mom’s car drive in.

They’re here. My folks are back from Paris.

Some days ago, I’d have been excited to run down there and give my mom a welcoming hug but right now, I was scared to even look her in the face.

And so I remained by the window and waited for my fate.

Probably mom might skin me alive. I saw her reaction in that video. I knew she was upset. She’d kill me. The fact was staring at me in the face. What mother would bear to hear her daughter being a lesbian?

I heard mom’s voices downstairs. ” Where is she?!”

I heard Charlotte’s replying her. ” She’s upstairs.”

Mom’s heavy footsteps ran up the stairs towards my room until she was opening the door gently with her hands to the door knob.

I slowly turned around to see her. Her eyes were Misty and urgent. I’ve never seen her this way before. She looked worried and scared at the same time.

Before I knew it, she ran From the door towards me and wrapped her arms around me, trapping me in her bone crushing hug.

” Oh baby,” she cried. ” Baby you’re not hurt are you?”

I was surprised at her concerned voice. Initially I thought I was gonna get the worse treatment of my life from her.

I guess I was mistaken.

” I’m fine, mom,” I said quietly, trying to struggle out of her crushing hug. ” Really, I’m fine mom. You can let go now.”

But mom wouldn’t let go. She held me tighter and I thought I heard her sniffing. ” Baby, were you really raped?”

I lowered my eyes to the ground and looked away.

” Yes,” my voice was tiny.

Mom couldn’t help herself. She squeezed me tighter. ” Oh God no! How….how did this happen?!”

” Mom,” I was catching my breath. ” I can’t breathe.”

Mom slowly let go of me and I was shocked to see how red and teary her eyes Suddenly were.

” Mom, you’re crying.”

Mom sniffed, stroking my hair gently. ” You have no idea how heartbroken I was hearing those words from your mouth, baby. Do you imagine the trauma I’m going through right about now? Any mother would be devasted to have a daughter as a rape victim.”

I tried smiling it off but it didn’t come off. ” It’s okay, mom. I’m recovering gradually. It’d take time.”

” We’re going to the hospital,” she said sharply, dragging my hand. ” Come with me.”

” The hospital? What for?”

” To run some test. I’m not comfortable with this rape saga.”

” But… Chole and Collette already took me to The hospital.”

Mom said nothing until we were walking down the stairs. Charlotte and Benjamin were seated downstairs on the sofas.

One look at Charlotte and I knew instantly she was collecting the most brutal scolding of her life from our dad.

Her face was bent and lowered. Benjamin’s face was aggressive and masked with a thick frown on his face.

I saw him yelling at her.

Mom didn’t stop. She walked passed everyone, dragging me along with her.

Benjamin saw her and called out to her. ” Susana?”

But she didn’t stop. She continued walking until we were seated all alone in her car.

The car sped off into the highway, leaving a cloud of dust behind.

As we sped off, I was quick to see Damian skateboarding passed us.

For a brief second, our eyes jammed. In that brief second, our thoughts ran and I could see his worried expression asking me questions.

I immediately looked away, aware my body was getting the shivers.

Shortly after, we arrived at the same hospital I had gone for tests. We ran the same test over and over again until mom was satisfied with the results.

However, that didn’t change the fact that I was raped and she was devasted beyond words.

We didn’t head back home as I thought we would. We stopped at the Pizza Villa where mom and I sat, a hot box of pizza placed before the both of us.

I knew then we were going to have a serious mother and daughter discussion and I was prepared for that.

Seriously, I was prepared for anything.

Anything at all.

Mom didn’t say a thing while we ate and neither did I. She was giving herself time to come up with whatever it was she wanted to say and I was giving myself time to answer all her questions.

And she’s going to have lots of crazy questions.

I was still on my one slice when she sudden spoke.

” Lucy?”

I looked up, ” mom?”

Mom had that frown on her face. ” What Happened?”

I knew she was asking about the rape incident. ” I…”

” Lucy, don’t lie to me,” mom said sipping from her glass of smoothie. ” I want us to get to the root of this stuff. Tell me everything. Right from the day you began school till now. I want the whole story.”

I knew then that I would have to spill everything out. I couldn’t hide anything from my own mother. She knows too much already.

” I’m listening,” she said, watching me closely.

I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath. ” Promise you wouldn’t be too hard on me, mom.”

” I promise.”

She had promised and once mom makes a promise, she never goes back on her words.

And so I told Mom everything. I told her how Collette had kissed me on my first day at school. I told her about Efua. I didn’t mention Vee nor did I mention the lilies. I told her about the rape incident and what led to it.

By the time I was through, I was without breath.

Mom could only stare at me in silence. She didn’t interrupt me and that was one thing I was wary about her. She was thinking and when she’s like this, she looked like an enraged bull.

” Baby,” mom leaned back on her seat, a frown on her face. ” You do know you’re not going back to that school, do you?”

I bowed my head. ” Yeah I know.”

Mom was silent again. I guess she hadn’t completely come up with the right words to say to me.

Then she said it. ” You’re going to change schools. After that’s done, I’m hiring you a therapist for counseling.”

I knew it would get to this. I kept quiet waiting for the rest.

She added. ” I don’t want to linger on the problem nor do I care to Know who’s to be blamed. My major concern is getting you fixed.”

” But…” I was fidgeting. ” Mom I don’t want to leave QA.”

” And why’s that?” Mom’s eyes were hostile. ” So you can go s------g your step sister?!”

” It’s not that,” my voice went quiet.

” Lucy.”

I glanced up to meet her eyes.

Mom was fighting back tears. ” You’ve ruined me.”

” I’m sorry mom.”

” I can’t believe…” She opened and closed her hands. ” I can’t believe my daughter’s a… I just don’t know what to say anymore.”

I said nothing. Seeing my mother cry was the heart wrecking moment of my life. There’s no heartbreak more devastating than that. I can guarantee.

” You’re not going back to that school and that’s final,” she said and stood up abruptly. ” Let’s go home. This is our last and final discussion on this issue.”

” Yes mom,” I spoke quietly, rising to my feet.

Mom led the way to our car. We said nothing on the long drive home.

The moment we arrived, mom stayed with me in my room, watching me as I sat on my bed.

She sat by the window, surveying me with her eyes. I couldn’t tell what she thought of me but she was certainly not going to leave me alone.

Benjamin knocked and stepped into the room.

” Honey,” he was speaking to mom. ” Can we talk?”

Mom didn’t reply. She had her hand to her chin, staring fixedly at me.

After a while, she spoke. ” I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Benjamin raised his hands in the air. ” Susana please…”

” I don’t want to talk about it now, Benjamin,” mom said sharply but in a gentle voice. ” I’m staying the night here with my daughter. Tomorrow we talk.”

Benjamin took a deep breath. His eyes went over to me and I could see how sorry he was about the whole thing.

As quietly as he came in, he left, closing the door as if it were made out of egg shells.

It was just me and mom—alone.

Hugging my knees, I stared at my naked feet, counting my toes without interest.

It was at this very moment, I thought about Collette. I wished she were here with me. I wished she hadn’t left. I wish she were here to face my mom.

But she wasn’t and I was alone. I’ve never felt Soo Alone in my life.

I didn’t step out that day. It was just me and my mom in my room. Before I went to bed, mom booked a private therapist to see me tomorrow.

She was at the phone for several minutes until I couldn’t take it anymore and fell on my pillow.

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I woke up at midnight to see mom sleeping by the window, her head tilted over her chest as she slept peacefully.

It was a cold night. I couldn’t bear to see her shiver in her sleep.

Taking my blanket, I walked up to her and gently covered her with it.

She looked washed out. I felt nothing but pity for her.

I had no idea what took hold of me. I bent my head and covered my mouth to stop myself from crying.

” I’m Soo sorry, mom,” I sniffed. ” Please forgive me.”

Mom’s face twitched but she was still sleeping.

I didn’t sleep again till the c--k crowed.

The next two days were considered more or less to patterns.

Damian came outside every morning to water his garden but I didn’t go out to meet him.

I stayed up in my room, watching him, knowing I should be downstairs to meet him but decided against it.

Twice he looked up at my window but I hide behind the curtains.

Charlotte don’t go to night parties anymore. She stays in her room at night and during the day she accompanies our father to go make the necessary payment for school next year which was just tomorrow.

We haven’t spoken to each other for quite a long while. Mom would make breakfast and bring it up for me to eat. She’d seat beside me and watch me.

Then the therapist would come and have a long talk with me.

The therapist was a middle aged woman who had all the experience and professional qualifications for handling a case like me.

She would have me seated on my bed while she ask me questions.

” Do you feel attracted to girls?”

” What attracts you to girls?”

” How do you feel when a girl smiles at you? What are your responses?”

” Do you want to change?”

And so on and so forth. I gave her satisfying answers and she in turn gives me easy going steps to break my obsession for girls.

That was what happened the past two days.

Today was the 31st of December 2016. Tomorrow would be new years day.

My mom was superstitious in nature. She believes in crossing over the new year with her family in the church.

And so we all boarded into Charlotte’s Range Rover as a family and went to church.

It was the last night of 2016. Next year by the 6th of November, I’ll be seventeen. Too bad I wouldn’t be celebrating my birthday at QA next year.

During mass, I made some new year resolution.

I wrote them down at the back of my diary. One of my new year resolution was this:

2017, I’ll get over Collette.

This wouldn’t be easy but I was going to do it.

I’ll get over Collette. How I was going to do that, I had no idea.

Then it was midnight. We had finally crossed over to the new year.

2017.

Everyone screamed happy new year. Well, everyone except me.

Fireworks sounded noisily in the air around the world. It was such a joyful moment.

My phone vibrated from my inner pocket. Fishing it out, I studied the text message written over my screen.

**MEET ME OUTSIDE****

This was an unknown number. I’ve never saved it before but something told me this was someone I knew.

While everyone were shaking hands and hugging to celebrate the new year, I was walking outside to meet the mysterious person that texted me minutes ago.

I stood at the pillar entrance of the church and waited.

I didn’t have to wait long. I heard my name behind me.

” Lucy?”

Turning around, I saw a boy approaching me from the Shadows.

When the light came to his face, I took a step back.

” Damian?”

Damian stood before me, eyes searching mine. ” Hello, Lucy.”

We stared at each other for a while.

” What are you doing here?” I asked, breaking the silence.

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We stood side by side, leaning over the balcony rail on the church’s roof. Above us, beautiful fireworks blasted in the night skies.

Damian had come with his parents to the same church to crossover into the new year. It was coincidence we met.

Damian had seen me in time to send me a text message.

” Are you avoiding me, Lucy?” Damian asked.

I was staring down at Charlotte’s Range Rover in the parking lot. Soon enough, my family would be heading towards the car to go home.

” I’m not,” I replied.

” But you are,” he sounded broken. ” I’ve been over your place repeatedly but your sister wouldn’t let me in. The last I saw you, you were with your mom.”

I looked away, unable to meet his gaze.

” What Happened to you, Lucy?” He asked. ” You look different.”

” And how’s that?”

” Well you look just like…” He broke off, a frown on his face. ” You remind me of your step sister, Collette: Hard, indifferent, deadpan.”

He was right.

Ever since my ràpe experience, I changed. I barely even talked these days. He must’ve sensed it. Damian was no fool.

” People change, Damian.”

” But not you,” Damian’s voice was hard. ” You’re not always this way.”

” You don’t know me.”

” I think I know you, Lucy,” Damian said sharply. ” You might not think it this way but I study people. You’re the most easy going girl I’ve ever met. Sure enough, you’re strong headed but you’re fun to be with. You’re not the bright, cheerful Lucy I once knew. Right now you’re somebody else. I can’t bear your absence anymore. I get sleepless nights worrying about you. Something happened. Just tell me what it is.”

My eyes widened. ” Gosh, Damian. You get sleepless nights cause of me?”

Damian frowned. ” Hey don’t think I’ve fallen in love with you cause I’m not. I’m just worried about you. It’s kinda dry not having you around.”

I suppressed a giggle. ” Don’t tell me you missed me already.”

” I did not,” he looked away and I was quick to see his face turning pink.

Boooooom!!!!

We both looked up sharply at the sky, watching the beautiful fireworks sparkling in the sky like diamonds.

Another fireworks rented the sky and so did another and another and another until the Sky all was beautifully painted with colourful sparkles.

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I closed my eyes and opened it again. In that particular moment, I felt inner peace.

Standing next to Damian made it all better. It means I wasn’t alone. It was such a magical view.

Somehow I knew Collette would be outside her window, watching the fireworks from her home.

I wonder if she misses me same way I missed her.

” Say,” I said suddenly. ” You free tomorrow?”

Damian looked surprisingly at me. ” Sure thing. My folks would be gone for work.”

I had no idea when I said it. ” How about our bestie date?”

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To Be Continued…..