Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 211
I almost didn’t finish my entry in time, actually, but I
managed to send it for the elimination just four
minutes shy of the deadline. I didn’t even think that I
could do it, but once I got home last night, I all but
rushed up to my room.
When I sat down in front of my laptop, I thought I
wouldn’t be able to do it after all, but once I
positioned my hands on the keyboard, the words
simply came, tumbling out from some unidentified
part of my subconscious.
It was probably not as refined and polished, since I’d
only gotten the chance to read it over twice before I
sent it. I was worried that I might have missed a
typo, but once I hit send, I couldn’t help but feel like I
accomplished something of great importance.
It might not be my best piece and the rushed writing
might not be able to get past the elimination, but that
was okay.
It wasn’t about succeeding. It was about trying.
And this—this thought that my Dad had once said to
me—was exactly what I had been searching for
when I was talking to Cedric, when he was saying
something about the treatments not working; when
he insisted that he wasn’t getting any better at all.
Nothing in this world was certain. Nothing was a
hundred percent sure.
But the odds of failing should never get in the way of
trying.
So whether or not my piece gets chosen, I didn’t
care.
“I found the flyer,” my mom finally said, breaking
my train of thought. She set the knife down and
leaned against the counter and looked at me. “You
must have dropped it.”
I blinked. “The flyer?”
“About the contest.”
“Oh.”
“Why didn’t you tell me about it?” There was a slight
tinge of hurt in the way her eyes regarded me.
I set the mixing bowl down, trying to figure out what
to reply. Her expectant gaze lingered on me and I
found myself swallowing, averting my gaze. “I don’t
know. It’s just… it felt like something personal.”
She seemed to understand. Something in her eyes
softened and she dropped her gaze, picking the knife
up again. “Well, did you get to finish it?”
Looking at her, drinking in that hesitant lilt to her
words, I took a deep breath. “Do you… do you want
to read it?”
Her eyes snapped to mine.
I bit down on my lip, fighting the urge to take the
words back. Letting her read it felt like letting her see
every part of my existence. Unlike the eyes of those
judges, of the other people who will read it, my
mom knew me. My mom was someone who
would look at me, after reading it, and know exactly
who I was.
When a thankful smile appeared on her face,
however, I didn’t regret the offer.
We abandoned our tasks for a second as I brought
her up to my room. While I waited for my laptop to
boot, I looked over my shoulder and saw Mom
holding up the photo of me and Dad on my bedside
drawer.
She set it back down and looked at me, looking both
uncomfortable and at home in my room as she
walked over to where I was sitting in front of my
study table.
I stood up so she could sit and read the Word
document I left opened for her.
I stayed quiet as she read. I counted the seconds
down. The minutes. I sat on my bed, waiting for her
to finish. Time ticked by soundlessly and I could
almost feel something shifting in the air.
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