Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 177
Are you all right?
I contemplated on hitting send as I
stared at Seth’s number on the
contact list, but I didn’t.
All it would have taken was one tap,
but the message stayed there,
unsent and saved in the drafts
folder, and for the rest of the day, I
felt awful about it.
Seth had been a constant presence
around me for the past few weeks
and now, I was finding it hard to
ease back into a normal routine
that didn’t involve him. I couldn’t go
back to my life pre-Seth, because I
was different now and it was hard
to figure out how this post-Seth
phase worked.
People have been staring at me all
day, sending me a variety of looks
—apologetic, curious, victorious. I
tried to ignore them all, telling
myself that all I had to do was go
through this day, and by the end of
it, I would finally know the answer
behind the biggest question mark
in my life.
So I tuned everything out and tried
to focus on the lessons, forcing
myself not to think of either Cedric
or Seth (a task which was proving
to be nearly impossible). All through
the day, I could feel the weight of
that unsent message on my phone,
dragging me down and reminding
me of everything that had gone
wrong between me and Seth.
After my last class, I went straight
to the library, where Cedric and I
agreed to meet. He wasn’t there yet
and I found myself composing
another message to Seth.
I kind of f-----g miss you.
Unsent.
I took a deep breath and locked my
phone. I wasn’t even writing the
messages for him at all. They were
for me, a way to deal with the fact
that I couldn’t talk to him and this
was the closest thing I could get to
telling him.
When my phone buzzed, I nearly
jumped. My first thought was that it
was Seth, but it was only Cedric
texting to me know he was going
to be around ten minutes late
because of some work he had to
finish for a groupwork.
Thinking I might as well use the
extra ten minutes he’d given me, I
took out a pen and paper to
attempt to write something for the
contest.
The deadline was looming closer,
but I still couldn’t find anything I
wanted to write about. I tried, quite
a lot of times, but only ended up
with messy first paragraphs and
some gibberish that were
immediately deleted from my
computer or torn from my
notebook, crumpled and thrown
away.
I took my earphones from my bag
and plugged them on, playing my
music on shuffle. It was almost
ironic, really, how the first track
that played was The Scientist
by Coldplay. It was like the lyrics
themselves were speaking what I
was feeling at the moment.
The words came flooding into my
brain as the music picked up and
before I knew it, I was already
writing on a piece of slightly
creased paper.
Do you remember, Romeo?
How it used to feel as if the world
revolved around her,
How the sun seemed dim to the
twinkle in her eyes,
How her smile was the thing that
made you open your eyes each
morning.
Remember, Romeo?
How much it hurt when she walked
out,
Her parting words like shattered
glass,
Marking cuts upon your heart.
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