The Heartbroken - S01 E135

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The Heartbroken - S01 E135

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 135

I wish I could say that the realization made it easier to deal with everything–the butterflies, the blushing, the weird tingly sensations.

It didn’t. In fact, it was the exact opposite. The moment the thought occurred to me, I bolted up from my seat, taking Seth by surprise. He looked up at me with wide, questioning eyes, slightly shaking his head in confusion.

“I’m taking a walk,” I said quickly, slightly breathless, looking at everything but him.

A crease formed between his brows. He set the guitar on the space next to him. “I’ll come with–”

I had already turned on my heels before the words had even left his mouth, walking away quickly. It took me a while to realize that I hadn’t even bothered to put my slippers back on in my hurry to get away from him as far as possible.

I heard him shouting in the growing distance. Sneaking a glance over my shoulder, I saw him stand up. I yelled, “Don’t follow me! I’ll–I’ll just be a minute!”

I hastened my steps, matching them to the beating of my heart. He looked so confused as I continued to walk closer to the water before heading to the right.

I was falling for Seth Everett.

F--k.

How the hell did that happen? My thoughts had gone haywire as my mind tried to make sense of the erratic beating of my heart.

What scared me most, though, wasn’t the thought of me falling for Seth. It wasn’t just that. It was the fact that no matter how hard I tried to come up with ways to convince myself that it was simply a foolish thought, that I wasn’t really beginning to have feelings for him, I couldn’t come up with anything.

Seth was thoughtful in a way that always managed to take me by surprise. He never failed to make me laugh. He always knew what to say to make me feel better. The sight of his smile made my heart do twenty f-----g backflips. How could I have never seen it before?

Moreover, how could I have let it happen?

It felt both wrong and right at the same time. We were friends. I couldn’t fall for him. Things were good the way they were, right?

I was freaking out. I couldn’t decide whether my feelings were a good thing or not. It felt like they could ruin everything.

There was also the unmistakable fact that Cedric still haunted me in a way that I couldn’t stop. If only it was as easy as telling your heart to kick him out completely, if only it was as simple as that, I would have done it long ago. It felt weird, like I was gravitating towards Seth despite the fact that there was still a magnetic pull that seemed to keep me attached to Cedric.

F--k. I couldn’t even understand my own thoughts. It didn’t make sense and–

“Holy f--k!” I heard from behind me.

My heart skipped a beat as my head snapped to the direction of Seth’s voice. He was hopping on one foot, one hand stretched out on his side as if using it for balance while the other was holding his other foot. He was several feet away from where I stood. I didn’t even realize that I had quickly sprinted towards him in panic.

“What–what happened?” I managed to say when I was close enough, slightly out of breath. I was pretty sure I pulled a muscle but I couldn’t care less as I looked at Seth.

He looked up from examining his foot. There was a grimace on his face. “Hey.”