Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 100
“I missed that smile of
his,” she said. “That
wide, dorky, goofy grin?
I hadn’t seen it for a
long time. Not until he
met you.”
I was so tempted to
ask her what happened
between him and Sarah.
I wanted to know. I
wanted to ask her so
badly. It was so difficult
to be the only one who
wasn’t in on the secret.
When Dad got cancer, I
had no idea about it
until he got admitted to
the hospital. They left
me in the dark for an
impossibly long time. I
never want to stay in
the dark ever again. I
needed to know what
Sarah’s deal was,
because I was afraid
the answer was going
to slap me straight in
the face harder later.
I didn’t want to be that
girl again. That girl who
was staring at the
closed door at the
hospital corridor, no idea
what was happening to
her dad on the other
side of the door, no idea
how bad it was, no idea
that whatever was
wrong, it was killing her
dad.
I don’t want it to be like
that with Seth again.
“Seth never told me
about Sarah,” I told her.
“He once told me that
moving on is being able
to remember
something without
feeling hurt. I think he
hasn’t completely
moved on.”
She looked at me with
an unreadable
expression on her face,
pressing her lips
together. “Well,” she
said after thinking
about it, “he forgot to
tell you the part where
moving on doesn’t
happen instantly. You
don’t just wake up one
morning feeling ‘Meh, I
don’t give a shit about
that motherfucker
anymore.’ It’s a process.
Seth had been stuck in
a rut for a long time,
and you’re the one who
pulled him out of it. He
might not have moved
on completely yet, but
he’s getting there.”
Was it the same for
me? Have I been
making progress?
Was I still stuck?
“Don’t hesitate to tell
me if he ever hurts
you,” she said. “I’d
personally give him a
black-eye for being
stupid and violently
shove him your way
until he apologizes.”
Seth’s real girlfriend
would be really, really
lucky. And not just
because of Alyssa and
the rest–Seth himself
was actually quite a
catch, not that I’d ever
admit that to him. That
sexist pig is bigheaded
enough already.
“You’re a really good
friend,” I said. “Really.”
“See? See? I’m an
awesome friend, yet
the others won’t even
come out for pizza with
me because they’re
busy?” she complained
with a playful eye-roll,
feigning a hurt tone.
Then, out of the blue,
she said, “Oh, by the
way, who was that guy
who approached you in
the cafeteria last
Monday? I asked Seth,
but it doesn’t seem
safe to take his word
for it.”
“Why? What did he
say?”
“That he was ‘a person
with severe bacne who
was convinced you had
some ointment that
could clear it,'” she said
flatly, amused.
I burst out laughing,
which I hardly ever do
when it comes to
matters about Cedric.
“He might be telling the
truth,” I said.
“Right, because he
would totally hate
someone for something
as simple as bacne. He
was totally jealous!”
Well, Seth did hate
Cedric, so I couldn’t
blame Alyssa for
mistaking the tension
between them for
jealousy. If only she
knew that it wasn’t
about being jealous at
all. It was a different
matter in its entirety.
“He’s my ex-boyfriend,”
I told her.
“Oh. That makes
sense.” She was so
nonchalant about the
whole thing, like it
wasn’t that big of a
deal. And I loved her for
it.
“Makes sense how?”
“Well,” she said, “it
totally explains the look
of terror on Seth’s face
when you walked out
of the cafeteria with
that guy. It was like he
was afraid you would
never come back.”
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