The Heartbroken - S01 E72

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The Heartbroken - S01 E72

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Or that they might ask

me what kind of

childhood I had, and I

know it’s supposed to

be a joke, but I could

never stop myself from

cringing.

“I swear, I can’t stand

that much

testosterone

overflowing when all of

them are together,” Lily

said with an eye-roll

before looking at me

and smiling. “So, Seth,

huh?”

I wasn’t sure how to

reply to that and I

ended up saying, “Uh-

huh.” Yeah, way to

sound retarded. I

mentally chastised

myself for being a

moron at a time like

this, just because I’m

hyped up about the

rides.

“You know what? I

think you and Seth are

going to last forever,”

Alyssa said. “I just

know it.”

“Well, that’s what you

said about you and

Warren,” Lily

deadpanned.

I expected Alyssa to

react rather rashly, but

she just laughed. It

didn’t even seem to

bother her. Either that

or she was really good

at hiding it. “Right, I

forgot about that,” she

said sheepishly.

“What went wrong

anyway?” I asked

without thinking,

immediately regretting

it. “Sorry, I didn’t mean

to—”

Alyssa nonchalantly

waved her hand in the

air. “Nahhh, it’s fine.

Really. The truth is that

I messed up. It was

actually all my fault.”

When I looked at her,

there was that sad

smile on her face again,

her eyes only trained on

Warren, who was

laughing at something

Justin was saying at

the moment. “He

deserves better.”

Lily sort of hit Al’s head

lightly. “I keep telling

you you’re being stupid.

If you still love him, and

duh, of course you do,

you should probably just

tell him.”

It was difficult not to

let my thoughts drift

away to Cedric. All this

time, I kept telling

myself that I was

completely fine with it,

but I couldn’t just keep

running away from

Cedric and my real

feelings. Heck, I didn’t

even know how I did

feel about Cedric. The

searing ache I always

when I start thinking of

him makes it hard for

me to face my feelings.

I looked over at Alyssa,

who was a bit busy

saying something about

some kind of game

here. I couldn’t help but

wonder what really

happened between him

and Warren. It’s like

nothing ever happened

between them.

Was that even

possible? To be able to

hang out like this

without feeling like

someone is stabbing

you over and over and

over again?

No matter how much I

tried to think about it,

the image of me and

Cedric playfully talking

about the past was too

impossible, even for my

imagination. There was

no way it was ever

going to happen.

“So, which are we going

to ride first?” Dan called

over from in front of us.

Everyone suddenly gave

out suggestions,

launching into a

surprisingly complicated

debate regarding rides.

Lily even mentioned

something about the

angle of elevation of

the roller coaster as

compared to the angle

of the sun or whatever.

“Since it’s Kyla’s first

time here, why don’t

we let her decide?” Seth

suggested, breaking the

argument.

Everyone agreed and

turned to look at me.

“Um.” I looked around

awkwardly.

“Dude, you should, like,

totally pick the Viking,”

Justin said.

“Don’t listen to him,”

Alyssa said. “Let’s ride

the Swans!”