Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 68
“Did you make this?” I
asked him.
He didn’t miss a beat.
“Yeah. A long time ago.”
“Who is Juliet?”
The name Sarah almost
made its way out my
mouth but I caught
myself. I didn’t know
why exactly I still
haven’t mentioned her.
I’d always been too
curious about most
stuff.
He shrugged. “It’s just a
name for the mix.”
“Who was it for?”
“Somebody,” he replied
vaguely, taking a left
turn. “I’ll make you one
someday.”
There was a subtle hint
of pleading to drop the
subject in his voice, so I
did. “Sure. Maybe
someday.”
It felt unfair. He knew
everything about me,
and I had no idea who
this Juliet is, and if it
was Sarah. It was like
there was a one-way
mirror between us and
he could see me clearly,
but I couldn’t see him.
Before the third track
started, I took the CD
out, feeling as if I was
stealing something
from Sara by listening.
I played something else
instead, avoiding the
mixes, pretending not
to notice his sigh of
relief as Ben Howard’s
voice filled the car.
“Now that I think about
it, what’s your favorite
band?” he asked me.
I was about to say the
Beatles, but I stopped
myself. The only real
reason why they were
my favorite was
because Cedric did. Now,
sure, I liked listening to
them, but I wouldn’t
exactly call them my
favorite. “I don’t know,”
I answered. “I have no
idea.”
I realized I was telling
the truth.
He considered this for a
second before nodding.
“Okay.”
He started to go on and
on about this band and
that band and it made
me think of Cedric,
saying I was in need of
a serious crash course
on music, and he
brought me a whole box
of CDs at home one day
and we listened to
them all afternoon.
“Hey, are you even
listening?” he said after
a while.
“Why should I?” I tried
not to make it obvious
that I actually felt guilty
about not paying
attention, acting hostile
instead.
He let out a frustrated
groan. “One day,” he
said, “one day you’ll
realize you’re taking me
for granted. And you’ll
fall helplessly in love
with me.”
“I highly doubt that.” I
looked out the window.
That would never
happen, I kept telling
myself, it would never
happen.
—
At one point during the
ride, I fell asleep to Ben
Howard’s songs and
when I reopened my
eyes, the engine was
turned off. I lifted my
head from the car
window, looking around
me for a second,
blinking back sleep as I
tried to take in my
surroundings.
“We’re here,” Seth said
from the driver’s side.
I looked through the
windshield, squinting to
make sense of the
place. My brain decided
not to function
immediately, still
suspended in
dreamland, when it
finally dawned on me
where we were.
I pressed my hands
against the glass of the
window, pressing my
forehead as well as I
tried to get a better
look outside. The
circular web of metal
rotating on and on, the
colorful stuff
everywhere, the rising
and falling and
zigzagging metal
structure. It all clicked
into place.
The amusement park.
I tried not to gawk as I
watched the roller
coaster rise, slowly but
steadily, until reaching
the down-ward slope.
For a second, the cart
teetered, like it wasn’t
sure of the dip, but it
did. Falling bit by bit at
first, continually
accelerating, gaining
speed like it was gaining
courage, embracing the
fall.
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