Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 51
“I’ve told you before—I
don’t want to want him
back,” I said. “It’s just
—I can’t completely cut
him off.”
“Just fall in love.”
My eyes widened,
completely taken by
surprise; not with the
sentence itself, but
with the way he said it.
His electric blue eyes
were staring deeply into
mine, his voice somber.
The expression on his
face was completely
serious.
“Look for somebody
else you can fall in love
with. You don’t have to
forget Cedric. Forcing
yourself to forget
somebody is a sign that
you’re not moving on.
Moving on is not
forgetting—moving on
is being able to
remember without
feeling awful about it.”
I looked at him.
“As much as you might
want to, you will never
erase Cedric from your
memories. He won’t
just magically disappear
from your life. You have
to deal with the pain of
knowing him and be
able to live with it. Let
someone else in.”
Another question had
crawled its way into my
mind. There was
something about the
way he talked, the way
he looked at me as he
told me these things,
the way he hung his
head as if he was
letting everything else
take its own course and
the way his eyes held
mine, like offering
himself in his most
vulnerable state.
“Seth?”
“Yeah?”
“Have you ever fallen in
love?”
“Oh.”
“What ‘oh’?” I
prompted, eager to
hear his answer, for
some reason I couldn’t
quite explain. I guess it
was just that Seth was
a player, someone who
never took girls
seriously. The idea of
him being in love, really
in love, was so
unfamiliar that I even
refused to acknowledge
it.
A look crossed his face
—one that was
bordering on hesitant—
and it was all it took for
me to know the
answer. That simple
pause, that little
moment when he
blinked thrice without
saying anything, the
way he looked away
from my gaze.
“Oh my god,” I said.
“What happened? Who
was she?”
“I…” He trailed off. “I
won’t answer any
questions about this
particular topic.”
I blinked. “What? That’s
—that’s against the
rules.”
“No. I’m using my pass
—on everything related
to this topic,” he said,
squirming a little on his
seat.
“Seth freaking Everett
had fallen in love
before,” I couldn’t help
muttering out loud,
shaking my head
slightly. “Who would
have thought?”
“Yeah, well…” He
scratched the back of
his head, his eyes
looking straight ahead.
“I’m just human, after
all.”
For some unexplainable
reason, we decided to
stop the game. We still
kept count with the
questions (I still have
six and he still has
seven) but we were
suddenly both too tired
to continue.
There was something
exhausting about baring
yourself that way—
showing someone your
secrets; being “human,”
like Seth had said.
Being human was
exhausting. All the shit
about living and falling in
love and getting hurt,
being stupid, making
choices, feeling happy
—“being human” is all
about these things. No
one could ever argue
that this wasn’t tiring.
Sometimes, you just
want to crawl in bed
and sleep and let go of
all these things, forget
about life and every
little thing that comes
with it.
Apparently, Seth had
the same idea.
Just as I was tucking
myself into bed (in the
guest room), the door
creaked open in that
scary way only horror
movies ever do,
revealing Seth Everett
holding a pillow. “I”—he
raised his hand, index
finger pointing at
himself—“am sleeping
here.”
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