Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 38
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But the smile didn’t fool
me. His eyes, probably
unintentionally, seemed
thankful; grateful. And
when I picked my fork
up, he, just like he did
on the day of the picnic,
placed his hand on my
head, ruffling my hair in
a gesture that seemed
both Seth-like and un-
Seth-like—a silent
thank you in the
passing of
understanding, words
left unsaid.
I wasn’t sure when,
exactly, it began, but I
knew I was curious
about all of his secrets.
When he was done
making my hair look like
a bird’s nest, he picked
the guitar up again and
said, “Hey, you play too,
right? I saw a guitar in
your room.”
A moment of silence
passed before I finally
said, “I don’t.” I sighed.
“I don’t play it, I mean.”
By the way his face fell,
I knew it wasn’t the
reply he expected. “Oh.
You don’t? Then… was
the guitar for… him, by
any chance?”
The weight of the word
him made the sentence
seem so heavy. I let out
an almost bitter laugh.
“Who else?” I said.
He was silent for a
while. A pause, then he
said, “Why didn’t you
give it?”
“I was supposed to
give it to him,” I said. “A
birthday present. The
night he dumped me.” A
pang of hurt washed
over me as I recalled
that night. It seemed
so far away, so much
like a surreal dream.
Except it wasn’t a
dream. It wasn’t even a
nightmare.
It was just reality.
Nightmares—they end
when you wake up, but
reality exists in a way
that none of us can
truly ever escape.
“Let’s give it to him,” he
suddenly suggested.
My head quickly
snapped to his direction.
“What?”
“It’s goodbye,” he said.
“Give the guitar to him.
You can’t keep it there
forever.”
I knew he was right. I
knew that that guitar
can’t stay in my room
forever, collecting dust
as I refuse to get rid of
it because it feels too
much like getting rid of
Cedric permanently.
Seth was right about
the guitar, but I wasn’t
quite sure if I could do
it. It seemed like
something I could never
do, some impossible act
I can’t ever pull off.
“I guess you can
always sell it, but… I
think it would be
something like, Hey it
was nice knowing you!
Here’s to the past!
Goodbye forever.”
I remained silent,
pushing the stuff on
my plate as he looked
at me in all seriousness.
“It’s part of moving
on,” he said, this time
quietly. “The question
is”—he gave me a
sideways glance—“do
you want to?”
—
When I got home, the
house was empty as
usual. It felt so
abandoned, as if the
family who had lived
here already left years
ago. Only the traces of
what used to be a
happy family evidence
that somebody
occupied this house at
one point in time—the
picture frames hanging
around the house, the
books my father used
to give her whenever he
found something
interesting.
That’s the thing about
my father. He was an
avid reader. He lived at
least half his life within
the pages of a book. It
was his only vice. While
most men would go
fool around with
unbearably young and
hot blonde secretaries,
Mom’s only rival were
the books. There were
days when he would
lock himself up in his
office, finishing four
books in a day. Mom and
I would go to the mall
and get ourselves new
outfits. She would get
my hair cut. We would
watch a movie and
spend the day without
doing anything really
productive.
When we get back
home, my dad would be
finished with the books,
and he’d have prepared
dinner already. Even
though he wasn’t a
very good cook (he can
manage to burn soup,
of all things, until it’s
nothing but charred
remains of what would
have been a delicious
dish), none of us felt
the need to complain.
We were happy, my dad
with his books, and me
on a fun day with Mom.
And though the day
might have passed with
us doing different
things, the nights were
always for the three of
us, eating some burned
dish, making jokes, Dad
dropping a random
quote from the books
he’d read and playing
Scrabble or chess or
Snakes n’ Ladders.
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