Little Lucy - S02 E10

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Little Lucy - S02 E10

Read Story: SEASON 2 EPISODE 10

” Lucy, are you a lesbian?!”

Staring at Charlotte as she raised the phone before me, I suddenly felt a flush of panic and rage running over me.

I panicked because it seemed likely she has suspicions of me being into girls.

I felt rage cause for Christ sake, she has no right on earth to unlock my phone and go through my browsing history. Where’s the privacy respect? And hey, how did she even know my password?

” Lucy, I asked you a question,” Charlotte’s voice came to me again.

” What’s the meaning of this?” I asked and it was shocking to hear how croaked and shaky my voice was. ” How were you able to unlock my phone.”

She regarded me closely then her lips moved. ” I guessed your password.”

” Bullsh!t!” I said through clenched teeth. ” How can you guess someone’s password?”

” It was a lucky guess,” she answered, her eyes like ice chips. ” And while we’re still on the subject, why did you chose to use Collette’s name as your password?”

” That’s none of your business!”

” It should be!” She was walking fully into the kitchen now. ” Collette’s also my sister. Is there some sort of attachment between you two?”

I backed even further away from her. I suddenly became scared of her. She was digging for information. If I wasn’t careful with her, she’d dig deep and make me give myself away.

I had to play smart on this one else I’m busted.

” What is all this nonesense?” I raised my voice. ” Why are you bringing Collette into this now?”

” Because her name’s the password to unlock your phone,” Charlotte stopped before me, gazing down at me through her dreadlocks. ” And secondly, you’re browsing about lesbians.”

” It’s my phone!” I shouted at her, my anger overshadowing my fears. ” I have every freedom to browse whatever I wish. Speaking of which, you have absolutely no right to go through my phone. It’s invasion of privacy!”

Charlotte smiled. ” Invasion of privacy, eh?”

” That’s right,” I drew my face, uneasy with that creepy smile on her face.

” For your information, lil sis,” Charlotte waved the phone in the air. ” I knew right from the moment I set eyes on you that you’re gay.”

I swallowed. What on Earth is this girl up to?

” Chole, I don’t like this,” I managed to say. ” You’re taking this conversation way out of line.”

She laughed. ” You think I’m taking this conversation…look Lucy, I’ll be honest with you, I’m not stupid. I’m many things but stupid is not one of those things. I was born brilliant and I use my brain. You may not think of it this way but I’ve encountered many lesbians in my high school days. Unlike Collette who chose an all girls school, I chose an entirely different high school—a mixed school.”

She paused, placing the phone on the table as she stared at it then at me. ” I know a lesbian when I see one. Don’t ask me how, I just happened to understand the difference between a straight and a gay. Ever since you arrive back from school, I’ve been studying you. First, Your lips are swollen and kissable. As far as I’m concerned, you only spent over three months at school. There’s no way you’d have such swollen kissable lips if you hadn’t been fooling around at school with someone else. Secondly, your neat manicured fingers are always hooked like horns whenever you hold an object. I noticed that habit anytime you eat or trying to expressing yourself while talking. I also noticed you check out every pretty girl that walked passed us at the mall today and that waitress, Sylvia, you had that unmistakable look of admiration for her when I saw you two talking while taking my call.”

I ran cold. So she really did see Sylvia and I while we were talking.

” Chole,” I was shaking. ” You’re just making these stuff up. Stop it, I don’t like it. I’m not gay! Get that into your head.”

She kept a straight face and the remoteness in her eyes had vanished. ” Does mom know?”

” Know what?!”

” That you’re gay.”

” What is this?!” I snapped. ” I told you before, I’m not gay! What’s the matter with you?!”

She picked the phone again and stared at it. Her eyes went through my browsing history and her face hardened again.

” I really don’t know why you’d want to research on something like this. But I could only imagine what our mother will think if she accidentally sees this.”

I was electrified. Oh no she don’t. She shouldn’t even go there!

” Chole, you’re not showing mom that are you?!”

Charlotte stared at me for a long time I thought she’d pounce on me. She began deleting my history file.

” I’m tempted to. But I won’t do it.”

I watched her clear my history file, then approaching me, she dropped the phone on the table beside me and stood back to stare down at me.

I swallowed. She was awfully close to me and I could feel my heart racing.

” I don’t know how deeply you’re rooted into this gay sh!t,” she said. ” But you really need to fix it—you really do. I’m concerned about you, lil sis. You’re possessed. I’m not trying to judge you or tell you how to chose your s£xuality but you’ve got to understand the nature of things between a man and a woman. Women were created to be loved and cared by men. No woman can take the s£xual responsibility of a man away from him. It’s not proper. I don’t know what your problem is but you really need to fix it. Because this thing is eating deep into you real quickly than you imagine. A time will come when it’d be too late to change and when that time comes, there’s nothing you nor anyone else can do about it.”

She paused, letting her words sink into my skull. ” I know this because that’s exactly what happened to Collette!”

I stiffened. So she knew! She knew all along Collette was….but how?

” How did you….”

Charlotte smiled. ” I’m not a kid anymore, Lucy. Collette changed ever since she became a student of QA. I’ve lived long enough with Collette to observe her new attitude towards girls. You’re no difference from how she behaves.”

I wanted to say something but the words wouldn’t come out. I was suddenly angry: Soo angry I had to restrain myself from pouncing her.

” I won’t tell mother,” Charlotte moved away from me. ” But like I said earlier, you better find a way of fixing yourself else you’d remain trapped. Collette is like that now. No matter how hard she tries, she’d never be able to change,” she paused again, staring thoughfully at me. ” You and Collette are lovers, aren’t you?”

Now was the time to let her know she couldn’t go talking as she liked.

” Now listen here, Chole,” my voice was loud. ” I don’t know what’s troubling you but you have to stop spilling out those trash from your mouth. I don’t like it. The fact you seized my phone and scrolled through it without my consent shows how unconcerned you are about my private life. It’s wrong and I don’t like it nor would anyone else. That’s an insult. In as much as you’re my big sister and I’m subjected to respect you due to our age difference, it still doesn’t give you the right to invade my privacy. Secondly, I don’t see why it should bother you that I like girls. Perhaps you’re concerned about me but that’s none of your business. My s£xuallity is my choice. I know it’s not proper but I’d rather date a girl than date a guy who’s gonna break my heart after all. Okay you got me, I like girls and so what? I chose p*ssy over d!ck. That’s what I want isn’t it? Why should it bother you? Everyone makes decisions. You chose to date a boy, I chose girls. That’s the difference between Collette and you. Collette understands me. She respects me and give me the freedom to make decisions for myself. I love what I am and I don’t care what you think about it. Collette understands that so you should too!”

And with that, I snatched my phone from the table and brushed past her, running upstairs to my room where I slammed the door and turned the keys, seething with rage.

I was angry because she had figured me out Soo easily. I was as transparent as a glass to her. By mentioning Collette and I were lovers made it all the more annoying. I couldn’t stomach it anymore.

It felt uncanny yelling at Charlotte like that. It made me think I yelled at Collette.

” God!” I covered my face with my hands, pacing around in my room, flushing red. ” Why did I even do that? I shouldn’t have talked that way to her. But she had it coming, didn’t she? She asked for it. Now she knows a lot about me, what’s she going to do about it?”

I wasn’t worried about her telling on me. She wouldn’t do that. I was more worried about the fact that she’d alway look at me differently now, knowing her little sister is interested in girls and that I’m the creepiest little sister she’d ever have.

Then I thought about Collette. Charlotte knows Collette dates girls too, doesn’t she? I’ll bet she’s under the impression that Collette and I have a lot to do with each other. She isn’t wrong about that but I wasn’t going to admit it to her. I seriously don’t want to complicate things between Collette and Charlotte and I.

Suddenly, my phone buzzed. It was a text message from Sylvia.

I picked up the phone and stared at it. I recalled we’d exchanged numbers while chatting on Facebook. I promised I’d call her once I arrive home. I hate breaking a promise. I was going to call her now.

She had typed: Arrived home yet? Still expecting your call.

A knock sounded on the door. I glanced at the door.

” Mom and Dad are back home,” it was Charlotte’s voice. ” Dad wants to see you.”

Somehow, she sounded indifferent as if nothing just occurred between us some minutes ago. The last thing I heard were her footfalls marching down the stairs into the living room.

Without wasting any time, I immediately change my password and added more security locks to my phone.

There’d be no stupid lucky guess to my phone password anymore.

I’m sure of that.

Then I dropped my phone under my pillow. I was finally going to meet my stepdad. I had to look presentable. I took a baggy shorts and wore than.

It wouldn’t do to show him my laps. I’m sensitive about step dads. I would’nt want to give him something to lust after.

I have a small mind. Just like Collette said.

Stepping out of my room, I ran down the stairs into the living room where mom was seated next to her husband to be—my new dad.

He was donning on a blank white polo shirt and a simple denim jeans that frayed at the knees.

This was Benjamin, Collette’s ex dad and now my new dad.

Benjamin turned to look at me and it shocked me to see how awfully young he looked. I later learnt he was in his mid-forties which was unbelievable because he looked like he was in his late twenties.

Aside from being good looking which by the way he really was, he was also a vivid picture of his twin daughters. He has Collette’s dark sad eyes, Charlotte’s wild face and Collette’s small mouth. He wasn’t pale like Collette. His skin shone just like Charlotte’s but he didn’t have her openness. He was reserved and quiet. A man of few words—just like Collette.

Mom opened her arms. ” There goes my baby. Come give mommy a hug.”

I went to her and hugged her but I couldn’t keep my eyes off Benjamin. He was looking at me the same way Collette had looked at my mom the day she came visiting me at school.

” Lucy,” she drew me down to seat beside her. ” I’m soo sorry I haven’t been around to be with you. Your dad and I were too tied up with appointments to round up at work plus our preparations for our wedding next week that we couldn’t sleep at home. Hope you’re not mad at me.”

I shook my head. ” Not at all, mom.”

” She has your nose,” Benjamin said all of a suddenly. His voice was husky. ” But where did her eyes come from?”

” Her late dad’s,” mom said.

Benjamin’s eyes searched mine and there was a flickering smile at the corner of his lips.

” I see.”

I don’t know how I did it but my eyes never left his. I kept seeing Collette in those sad eyes. I’m not a mind reader but I can tell, this man’s a good man.

Charlotte had mentioned Collette hated their dad. Why on Earth would she hate a man like this?

” It’s nice meeting you, Lucy,” he diverted his eyes away from me. ” I heard you’re roommates with Collette.”

” Yes sir,” I answered.

His smile stiffened. ” How’s she?”

” She’s doing great,” I added, ” she’s really been good to me. She helped me with my grades when I was slacking off.”

He nodded. ” I’m glad you two are getting alone really fine.”

And that was where he drew the curtains. He returned his eyes back to the television which was showing the news.

Like I said, a man of few words. I liked him instantly but I was also anxious to know why he wasn’t really pressing deep about the affairs of his daughter, Collette.

” You’ll have to forgive Benjamin,” mom said, grabbing possessively at his arm. ” He’s not the talking type.”

” It’s alright,” I smiled a false smile. ” I think he’ll make a great dad.”

Mom became suddenly happy. ” Thank you for accepting him, Lucy. This means a lot to the both of us.”

I said I understand.

From the kitchen, I heard something frying on the frying pan. It was then I realized someone was cooking.

It was Charlotte.

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Dinner!

We were all seated around the dinning table, a big bowl of white rice in the middle of the room, a pot of chicken and goat meat stew by the side, two jar of chilled orange juice with Ice in it, our empty plates and our empty stomach ready to eat.

Charlotte had prepared this dishes all by herself. Mom didn’t even step a foot in the kitchen, Charlotte wouldn’t let her do a thing in the kitchen. She had insisted mom retires from the kitchen from now onwards. It was a good laugh and it came from only mom.

Dad did the prayers and then Charlotte stood up to dish everyone a plate. When it got to me, she dishes my meal, her eyes not leaving mine until she was done.

Was she mad at me? I couldn’t tell and I didn’t care. If she was understanding like Collette, she wouldn’t be mad at me over what happened earlier this evening.

We ate in silence with me talking about my school experience this year. Benjamin had insisted I tell him how my first year in QA was like. It was pretty tough for me cause I had to lie a lot and make up stories along each words I speak to avoid hitting the crazy things I’d done at school. Of course I didn’t tell them anything about the LILIES nor did I tell them about Efua and Collette. As much as I could, I avoided mentioning Collette in my story. I don’t want to dip my fingers into that at the moment.

” QA’s a great school,” Benjamin said after I was done talking. ” They’re the best in the country. I never knew you had great taste, dear,” he was talking to my mom. ” Enrolling Lucy there was the smartest thing. Her grade is amazing.”

Mom was smiling widely. ” Thanks, love. It’s my plans for Lucy to go to an all girl’s school. Lucy was very distracted back home. I feel comfortable with her at QA. No boy would do anything funny with her there.”

Charlotte laughed softly.

” What’s funny, Charlotte?” Benjamin asked.

” Oh nothing,” she chuckled. ” I just remembered a comedy skit I watched today.”

I knew why she laughed. It was a mocking laugh. If only mom knows what I’ve been doing at school, she wouldn’t have made that statement.

I wondered how mom would feel if she gets to know the school she thought was best for me had changed me into something else.

Dinner was over before I knew it. Charlotte left for her date with George leaving me behind with Mom and Benjamin.

I gave mom and my new stepdad their privacy to discuss whatever it was they wanted to discuss. I stayed in my room, locked in and thinking.

I remembered Charlotte’s words:

•••I’m concerned about you, lil sis. You’re possessed. I’m not trying to judge you or tell you how to chose your s£xuality but you’ve got to understand the nature of things between a man and a woman•••

•••Women were created to be loved and cared by men. No woman can take the s£xual responsibility of a man away from him….this thing is eating deep into you real quickly than you imagine. A time will come when it’d be too late to change and when that time comes, there’s nothing you nor anyone else can do about it•••

I screwed my face in worry. Charlotte was right about one thing. My desire for a girl was really eating deep inside me. Ever since I left school without Collette by my side, it felt as if I was going insane. I can’t concentrate. There’s this sudden urge that jumps on me everytime. Call it s£x if you like but it’s creeping up on me whenever I’m alone and thinking.

While shopping at the mall with Charlotte earlier today, I’d been checking out most of the pretty girls that walked passed us. I never know Charlotte was watching me.

There were lots of beautiful ladies around but I was looking for one girl. Just one girl. One girl who’d give me that crazy feeling I get whenever I’m around Collette.

Apparently, I found no one except….

Except….

Except Sylvia.

“Sh!t!” I swore under my breath and fumbled for my phone under my pillow. I was horrified to see ten missed calls; all from Sylvia.

I instantly logged in online on Facebook.

Sylvia was online but she hadn’t sent me a message. I had promised I’d call her today but I got distracted and forgot.

Me: hi, evening Sylvia.

She saw the message but didn’t reply.

My hands suddenly went slick. I sent a hello sticker.

She saw it but left me on read.

I grew furious. I waited but she didn’t reply me.

I typed:

Me: hey, I’m sorry I didn’t call, I got busy in the kitchen, you know. Should I call you now?

She read it but left me on read.

What is all this? Is she trying to act b!tchy. I had no idea what made me swipe to my contacts list, found her number and called her.

The call went but she didn’t pick it up. I minimized my call log and checked Facebook. She was still online but she freaking wasn’t picking my calls?

I called again. It went through but no one answered.

She’s mad at me! I knew I messed up but why the silence treatment? The third time I called, she cut the call without even answering it.

Alright, you snobbish b!tch. If that’s how you want it, fine! I switched off my phone and locked it up in my chest drawers.

I laid back on my bed and stared at the ceiling. To my dismay, I found out my mind was not at rest. I kept thinking about Sylvia. It hurts to know you upset someone and you’re ignored for it.

I tossed and turned in bed. Of all the girls I’d seen today, Sylvia turned out to be the only one who understands me.

She’s a lesbo isn’t she? Why wouldn’t she understand.

Charlotte doesn’t understand me so she’s out but Sylvia understands me—just like Collette.

I sat up and walked to the window. ” Lucy, you’re really a crazy girl. Why’d you think of another girl this way when you already have Collette? But Collette and I aren’t even dating. We’re sisters so I don’t see what’s wrong hanging out with Sylvia.”

Then I remembered that sparkle I saw in Sylvia’s eyes and her smooth words and that intoxicating suggestive smile on her lips.

Running my palms over my face, I returned back to my chest of drawers, drew out my phone and switched it on.

I sent her a short text message:

I’ll be coming over to the mall tomorrow. Expect me by 9:00.am… goodnight.

From outside my window, I heard Charlotte’s Range Rover drive in and I knew instantly she was back from her date with George.

I got my mind made up. Tomorrow I’ll go to Sylvia and apologize.

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