In the billionaire’s bed - Season 1 - Episode 84

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In the billionaire’s bed - Season 1 - Episode 84

Ep 38b

“You know, don’t you? About Camilla?” I asked, trying to find out about how much she knows.

“Yes… She’s the woman you fell in love with- Marcos’s wife, my-my half sister.” she sighed. “No one told me, I figured it all out… I knew the woman couldn’t be April and seeing Camilla at that party only confirmed my suspicions… I knew she was Marcos’s wife because of her last name… I know they tricked you.”

I sighed, a sigh of relief… She didn’t know what the bigger picture is, but she was so correct about everything she just said.

“I shouldn’t- I shouldn’t be feeling the need to help you, Emeliano.. I should hate you and taunt you with the information that I’d gathered so far… But then you’re also a victim in all this. And, I’ve grown to lik-”
“Don’t.”

“Emeliano, it’s the-”
“Don’t.” I repeated, unable to calm my hard beating heart.

“I know you’re scared of being hurt again and I know that I’m the last person you want to see right now- I know how much you hate me-”

“I don’t hate you.” I can’t bring myself to hate you- as much as I try to… The more I try to loathe you, the more it all backfires into the opposite.

“So, why are you pushing me away? All I want to do is help.”

“I don’t want your help… You’re making everything difficult for the both of us by staying here… Go back to the Lewis estate”
“I can’t! I can’t go back to the Lewis estate… I can’t stay there with a murderer!” She yelled this time, stopping my breathing before it came back with full f-----g force.

“Who told- how did you-”
She came closer again. “It doesn’t matter who told me… All I know is that I hate him… I hate him for what he did to you and my mother. He betrayed you, killed your father and cheated on my mom when they were still together.”

“He didn’t-”
“Yes! Yes he did- how else would he have another daughter? I know why they got divorced now… He was a cheater… An evil man.”

“Rebecca don’t-”
“That’s the way I feel about him… I hate him, I loathe him and this is the first time I’m having this kind of feeling for anyone… And I intend it to stay that way.”

I stood there watching her… She was far too deep into all of this and I wanted nothing but to tell her what really went wrong between her parents… But I couldn’t bring myself to do it… I promised April I wouldn’t.

“Camilla hurt you- I know that, and I’m sorry… I’m sorry for what they all did… And I’m sorry that I couldn’t stop myself from lik-”

“Don’t complete that.”
“Why?! If you haven’t noticed, I’m not one to hide my feelings, I’d rather say it out loud than bottle it all up!”

“You shouldn’t-” I tried to talk again but she interrupted me.

“I should. I don’t control my heart Emeliano… And I have to admit- it’s weird, it too soon, the odds of my feelings for you were too slim, but I couldn’t help it… I tried to shrug it off, I tried to ignore it.. I tried to think of all the words and things you did to me, to block it all out,” She took the final step closer, when I mean closer, I bet she could actually hear the raging beating of my heart. “But I couldn’t, I probably sound crazy… Hell, anyone would think I’m crazy, they would call me an hypocrite… But I don’t care. It’s you Emeliano… It’s you I care about.”

“You shouldn’t.” Was all I could say, my heart was not giving me the chance to make out real words.

“I should.” She repeated her words from earlier. “I don’t know what’s wrong- but I love this wrong… And I would repeat it a thousand times that I don’t regret the day you kidnapped me… At first I disliked you for it, anyone would… I hated you for asking me to strip naked and then after you insulted my body… I tried to hate you, but then I thought… No one would do that without concrete reasons-”
“My action that day can’t be justified.”
“It’s me you hurt… And it’s me that’s forgiving you for it.” She said.

“You can’t… What I did was terrible and I would never forgive myself, neither would I ever stop hating myself for the lies I spilled out that day- I didn’t mean anything I said- everything I said was out of anger, I couldn’t control it… It was wrong, I thought I was doing myself a favor, but it dawned on me when I walked out of this study that day… I don’t deserve your forgiveness- I deserve your hate… I kidnapped you, I was foolish… So foolish to think she actually cared about me…” I found myself blurting out everything.

“When my father betrayed my mom and I, I was broken when she filed a divorce, and I was useless when she left me… But then Rafael came into my life, rising up lost hopes… Bringing Camilla into my life- I was just so desperate and in need of someone to love me… But then, they betrayed me- broke me all over again… I saw you that morning, I didn’t realize at first, I wanted to just ignore you and leave… But I couldn’t help it… I’m sorry for everything.”

“Sixth time.” She said with a sly smile
“What?” I asked her, my voice coaxed with confusion.

“This makes it the sixth apology you’ve given to me.”

“Seriously?” I couldn’t help but chuckle… “You’re still counting…”

“I couldn’t help it.” She gave me her heart stopping, building, beautiful smile. “But truth be told, I’m not one to hold a grudge… I’ve forgiven you, but that doesn’t mean you get to escape from my frustrating punishments- I still have a lot of ways to make you pull your hair out of your-”
I connected my lips with hers in a sudden moment, feeling the insane rise of awareness and electricity in every inch of my body, but it was most felt in my heart…

Yet again- my body betrayed my brain… But It was something I wanted too.

I pulled her even more closer to me, enjoying the feel of our bodies pressed together. This felt right in every possible way…

Rebecca felt right in every way… Her hands in my hair, her lips on mine, her heat, the tempting low sounds of approval she makes now and then- it all felt so right.

But No… I can’t let myself fall again.. she’ll be gone soon. And I wouldn’t like that- my heart wouldn’t like it one bit… She may be one to share her feelings, but I’m most definitely not one to fight for mine.

With that, I pulled away. Walking out of the study, just like the first f-----g day.
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