Enticed - Season 1 - Episode 46

4 years ago

Enticed - Season 1 - Episode 46

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Trisha

I try the lock, there is a possibility that he has locked it to my surprise it’s not locked and I wonder if he just returned from somewhere or planning to leave or maybe expecting someone, I enter its dark could he be asleep I call out his name but he does not reply.
I switch on the light and gasp on his sight, there is a bin with puke the side of his bed and he is leaning over the edge of the bed to it but he is asleep. I move to him with worry of if he is sick. A smell of alcohol fills the air as he burps and I realize that he is in this state because he is drunk.

It’s not like him to get this drunk, I sign staring at the effect I had on him, I know I did say I needed space but now I realize that I was driving him crazy and maybe it is him who needs a break from my bitter self. I take a deep breath and move the bucket from his bed. I shudder as I notice that he has was drunk on an empty stomach… it’s just liquid on the bucket. I clear out the bucket on the bathroom and wash it.

His room is a mess. I start picking up his clothes and clear the little table that was placed at the corner of the room. I wonder if the hotel cleaning stuff ever visits this room. My phone rings as I was still trying to tidy up. I check the caller ID. Zenzie.

Me: Zenzie…

Zenzele: Trisha did you find him?

Me: yes…um… I am sorry I left you with my work can you please apologize on my behalf and inform them I had an emergency then tell the pa to reschedule the meeting.

Zenzele: have you forgotten that I don’t know anybody… but don’t stress okay. Do you want me to come up there after this?

Me: no… you should go home, I will see that he arrives home tomorrow.

Zenzele: okay, take care.

With that he hang up. I took a deep breath and continued what I was doing. After I was done I went up to his bed and sat next to him. He looked a mess, troubled and pained and pained. It was at that moment when I realized that my sulking is not only ruining my life, he is also messed up and he was right, if I don’t try to move on and try to get over everything I am going to remain with the pain forever. My phone rang again this time it was Tracy.

Tracy: hey girlfriend.
Me: Tracy… how are you?

Tracy: I am good baby… what about you?
Me: I am still trying.

Tracy: trying with that bustard you call a husband or have you finally decided to divorce him.

Me: Tracy… I know I used to want that but right now I think I should really start looking at things on the other side.

Tracy: baby… he is a no good.
Me: he did that because he wanted me
Tracy: don’t you think that’s a little bit freaky… I mean you could totally be good on your own.

Me: what is wrong with you Tracy… you normally never try to oppose me, you are always with me with every step I take

Tracy: I know but this tome its different Trish… the last time I was there you were a total mess because of him and I hated it. I just don’t want that happening again.

Me: no one ever said love is paradise
Tracy: the way you are talking… you are in love with him

Me: yes I am.
Tracy: this is a mess… no Trish, it can’t
Me: what is it Tracy…

Tracy: nothing……. I’m happy for you.
Me: you sound too low

Tracy: no it’s just that I feel like I am catching cold… hey I actually called because I am coming home for the holiday.

Me: oh that’s great, I miss you so much I can’t wait until you arrive. When will you arrive?

Tracy: it’s a surprise… look I have to go.

Me: bye
Oh my god help me. I kissed his forehead, how did I ever fall in love with him, it would have been easier if it was that time when I didn’t have any feelings for him. I lean over to him and put my head on his chest. I close my eyes trying to drift into a sleep but it takes a long time until I can finally sleep.

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Dad: Trisha
Me: (startled) dad!!!
Dad: I am never wrong Trisha
Me: dad… you are really here… don’t leave me

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Dad: make things right before it’s too late… before you lose everything.
Me: I lost you…

Dad: with the way I raised you Trisha… I didn’t expect this from you. I raised a strong responsible girl but somehow you are proving me wrong.

Me: what do you mean?
Dad: Either you fall and remain at the ground or fall and stand up again… am I clear? The past is history… what’s left is the future.

He is angry at me but before I can get what he is talking about he turns around and goes.

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I sit up in a swift sweating, I was dreaming about dad. I hold my head as a slight pain rushes across my head. I check the time from my phone, two thirty. I looked at my husband who was still sound asleep. I stood up and went to the window then looked down at the city. There was not much activity just the lights that made the view look beautiful, December is just a week away which means Christmas is just around the corner is now evident due to the light decorations around. I sighed as I thought of the words my father said in my dream.

He is right if I don’t fix things then I am going to ruin my life.

I moved to the double couch and sat there staring at the white ceiling until I fell asleep again. I woke up early again but this time it was morning. I checked the time almost seven. I took a bath and slipped back into my evening gown. I ordered strong coffee and breakfast to be delivered to the bed room and sat on the couch looking at him grateful that it is a Saturday. The food arrives and I receive them then go back to the couch. After about half an hour he turns to look at the other side then turns again. I sit still waiting for him to be fully awake.