Lesbian one shots - S01 E39

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Lesbian one shots - S01 E39

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 39

Part 2?

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1 month later

So it didn't go back to normal.

We slept together again the next night and she's barely spoke to me since.

So I'd say it's going well.

What's driving me crazy more than anything is the fact I don't know if it's because of this weird feeling I know we are both having or if she's freaked out or if she's changed her mind and doesn't want to speak to me again. The endless possibilities are driving me insane, ultimately making me ring her and I never ring people.

At this point I was just grateful she answered the call.

After the first awkward 10 seconds I managed to scramble out the sentence of asking her to come over for 'dinner' knowing for a fact no matter what way this goes we'll get distracted. I don't know what I said because I think I blocked it out of my head I was that unbearable. I do luckily remember the time tho so now I'm just sitting here on the verge of shitting myself waiting for her to knock on the door.

Well that's if she turns up.

Pulling me out of my spiral was a knock at the door and I felt my heart physically leave my body. I really wish I wasn't so skittish. I head to my front door and I'm greeted with her hand running through her dripping wet hair, her cheeks all flush and her lips a little swollen from the cold.

"So are we just gonna awkwardly stand at my front door in the pouring rain?" She kind of laughs at my attempt at humour but I think it was more out of sympathy and awkwardness.

She walks inside and goes straight to my sofa, sitting in the spot she sits in every time with the same cushion on her lap. "So what did you wanna talk about?"

"Us." So I've all of a sudden decided to go straight to the point? Okay then.

"What about us exactly?" She sits messing with the corner of the pillow, avoiding looking at me completely.

"Oh come off it. You know exactly what I'm on about or you wouldn't have ghosted me for the last month. Now just accept the fact we both have feelings for each other or stop whatever this is we have going on. If you're not ready or whatever that's fine just at least talk to me about it, don't leave me in the dark and expect me to understand. I wanna be there for you, let me be there for you." She still doesn't look at me as I move a little closer from the other side of the sofa.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to just ghost you like that but I just freaked out. The first time it happened I told myself it wouldn't happen again, that it was probably just the alcohol but then it did happened again. Sober. And what made it more confusing is that I wanted it even more than the first time, I mean god I couldn't stop thinking about you. You were everywhere. I tried everything to forget it happened those first two times but I just couldn't so I stormed into yours thinking or well hoping you'd kick me out. That you'd tell me go away. I needed you to tell me stop but part of me needed you to say yes more." She leans her head back and rubs her hands over eyes, taking a deep breath before continuing.

"I tried telling myself I just needed the sex, that it wasn't emotional or anything but the way I feel when I look at you has nothing to do with that. The butterflies I get in my stomach when you look at me, feeling like I can finally let go around you. Let you have some control, be myself with you in every aspect. I'm just sorry it took me so long to figure out why I felt those things." She finally turns her head to me and reaches her hand out to hold mine.

"So why do you feel those things?" I need her to say it first, I can't bring myself to say it and not know if that's what she meant.

"Because I love you." She sounds so sure of herself. My heart stopping as she says it.