My God When - S01 E32

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My God When - S01 E32

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 32

Emmanuel’s words made me sink in the ocean of depression for days not until I found my way back to God who reminded me of my state in Him (a new creature in Christ. Old things are passed away, all things have become new).

I knew I wasn’t a prostitute. Besides, I only slept with Daniel in my life. I never had any boyfriend. I didn’t jump from bed to bed.

He even had the gut to tell me that some prostitutes were better than me.

Because of Christ the hope of glory in me, I knew I was better off than prostitutes. I knew God, they don’t know him. I had been redeemed but, they are yet to be redeemed.

The only thing I could do was to pour my heart to God because I was really pained. I was broken. I only needed someone in my life who could heal my broken heart. Only God could do that for me.

My Bible made me to understand in the book of Psalm 147 verse 3 that God heals the broken in heart and binds their wounds.

To be sincere with you, I had been broken without repairs. I knew of someone in my shoes that commited suicide when she couldn’t bear it again.

It wasn’t as if all my challenges didn’t made me to give suicide a chance but, I so much believe in something.

I may be passing through hell in life but God who created me knows about it. I know he cannot allow me to die in my challenges.

He assured me over and over again in His words that when I pass through the waters, He is right there with me. When I pass through rivers, they shall not overflow me. When I pass through fire, I shall not be burned because He is God.

I knew I was alive only because God was and is still in need of my life. I could have died when I did the last abortion. I could have died that day I went to the bush to commit suicide before my mentor interrupted me.

I could have died immediately I was born to this world because my parents struggled before I finally decided to come to this world alive. Yes, my mum had countless of miscarriages and still births.

I strongly believe that God hasn’t forgotten me despite the fact that it looked as if I was being forgotten.

I strongly believe that all these happened so as to serve as a great lesson to millions of soul out there.

Come to think of it. If I had died, many people wouldn’t have read my story. Many people wouldn’t have learnt from my life to avoid some avoidable mistakes in life.

Dear, I don’t know what you are passing through. Sometimes, you’re passing through hell just to be a source of encouragement to millions of people out there who are going to pass through that same hell.

You’re passing through challenges so that many lives can be inspired.

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I just couldn’t hold back my tears when I was invited to give a talk in a school. Yes, the person read my book and chatted me up. He was really blessed as a result of my story he read.

Along the line, he invited me to give a talk in his school.

I accepted the offer.

Before I went to that school on that glorious day, I involved the Holy Spirit.

As I mounted the podium, I felt the presence of God. Along the line, I narrated my story to people. 70% of the students were moved to tears. I narrated my story to some extent I couldn’t help but shed some tears. After sometimes, I smiled and continued my story.

Many students gave their lives to Christ. Many students discovered their purpose in life. Many students were set free from the chains of immorality, and addiction to masturbation and pornography. Many students were liberated from the chain of low self esteem. Yes, inferiority complex.

All these were possible because I had been there before. God brought me out of all of them. It would be so selfish of me not to tell people about it. And that was why I wrote a book about myself.

I couldn’t thank God enough for the success of the program.

As I was about to leave the school premises, a girl ran to me. She could not stop her tears. She told me God used me to give her hope. The girl had been nursing suicidal thoughts for a very long time in her mind.

Of a truth, she had really been through hell in life. She had made up her mind to terminate her life immediately she returned back from school that same day, not knowing that God sent me to her to give her reasons why suicide wasn’t the next option for her.

My story gave her up. She was really inspired.

Dear, you’re passing through your pains because of a reason. It will be stupid of you to quit. Yes, you’ve come too far to quit. Remember how you started and how you kept going even when things were becoming tough.

Is it when your victory is near that you want to commit suicide or give up because the battle is becoming tougher?

Remember, if you give up, you will never be a winner. If you commit suicide, you will never be heard for good.

Many people are looking up to you. Yes, they are dying to hear from you. They want to hear your success story.

Yes, trust me, one day you will tell the story of how you overcame your challenges in life and your story will be a survival guide, source of encouragement, inspiration to many out there.

So, don’t give up. Just keep enduring. Believe in God.

God hasn’t brought you this far to abandon you. As long as you are a child of God, all things will definitely work together for your good.

I know you want me to talk about my marriage.

Well, I totally wrote marriage off. I wasn’t thinking about it anymore but, something happened.

Yes, I was just devoted to the things of God. I worked on myself. I deployed my purpose. I helped people in the little way I could, just to make impacts.

If you are yet to get my book, you’re missing a lot. You’re only reading the summary of my life. The real gist isn’t written here until you get my book. Yes, the way I discovered my purpose and various ways you as a person can discover your purpose is being revealed in my book. My encounters with God is written there. How I became free from the bondage of low self esteem is there. How I built my spiritual relationship with God is there. Vital lessons God and my experiences taught me are right there in the book. This book is touching lives. I wouldn’t want you to miss out.

If you really need this book, dm me.

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Like I said, I totally wrote marriage off. I worked on myself.

But, the story changed.

I received a message from someone who wrote me off.

Who was the person?

Please, watch out.