Deal With The Devil - S01 E85

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Deal With The Devil - S01 E85

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 85

❝What if?❞

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"One day, I will make love to you and pleasure you unlike anything you've ever felt" Sebastian whispers to me. The blush on my cheeks deepens as the red colors grows even more redder which I'm not even sure is possible. I don't even know what I can say about that since I can barely use my voice right about now. "I shall get you some clothes and then you can talk to Colt. I believe there are a thing or two you wish to speak to him about and if you want, slap him" He says to me and winks. 5

I roll my eyes as I giggle. "You're the only one that I need to slap because you're always the one that messes everything up" I tell him and we both share a laugh. Moments like these I wish could last forever but Sebastian stands up and he walks to the walk in closet and when he comes back he has clothes for me. Did he always have clothes there for me? I don't dwell on the thought for that long Ashe hands me the clothes and then he helps me into them because I do feel a bit of pain when I go into pants. 1

My stomach is still healing. I had gone to see a doctor when Sebastian brought me home, she was so nice to me and she told me that I was rather lucky as the shard had slightly cut into some of my organs but nothing too serious, she also told me that the doctor that treated me did a good job at sowing everything together and make sure there was not anything still bleeding. But, I wasn't supposed to try to walk until Christmas and then it would be three weeks since the accident and I will be safe to walk.

However, it's going to be hard to walk again and it will take some time until I'm back into the form that I was before. When I'm dressed Sebastian picks me up bridal style which does shock me but then again since I can't walk and the wheelchair is still in Colt's room, this is the only way that I can get around another room. "Are you still angry?" I ask as he is walking the hallways. Sebastian chuckles at me but shakes his head.

"Good" I whisper, though I do somehow like it when he's angry. He got angry because I, his wife was 'sleeping' with another man, that has to mean something, that he does care for me. Maybe, I don't know. It's hard to tell if he does and I fear asking him because if I ask him then I will have to confess my feelings for him and the freedom that I've been working towards seems to just go away from me and I will never have that in my life and that is what I want... right? I don't know.

My mind, body and soul are in a war, trying to figure out if I want to be with Sebastian or get my freedom, both sound equally as good but I know that I will not be able to have both of them, no matter how much I want both. "Sebastian?" I ask him quietly. I look up at his eyes, whom I never want to look away from as always. "Yes, Fawn?" He asks me and smirks. "Would you have wanted me if I wasn't a virgin?" I ask him. I've heard that many men like it when they marry virgins.

Perhaps he would not want me if I was not a virgin. At first when I married him, I would be all right with the fact that he did not want me but now I hate the very thought of it. He stops right in his tracks. "Whether you have had intercourse with another man before we were married has nothing to do with me and it doesn't matter" He answers but it wasn't the answer I was looking for. I would've settled with either yes or no, though one of these would've hurt me and cut deep into my heart while the other one would've made me happy. 5

I fear doing it and I fear being with a man like that and I know that I have nothing to fear but I do. "Oh" I only say as he continues on. Because it wasn't the answer I wanted, I did not get my question answered so I don't question it further nor am I sure I would want to know the answer. Still, I am a virgin and I don't have to think of the fact that if I wasn't because I am and I want it to stay like that.

He takes me to the guest floor and I find myself growing nervous at being here as I remember the things that happened here before and how Colt was beat up. I worry so much about him and I do hope he's all right and I wish that none of the things that took place here never even happened but I can't change the past. He takes me to Colt's room and I gasp when I see Colt siting on his bed. His face is bloodied but he is cleaning it. One of his eye is swollen and it looks like a black eye is forming.

Both his lips are cut and bleeding and his nose is still heavily bleeding. I can't see that much from the blood. Sebastian puts me into the wheelchair without a word and I'm not slow at wheeling myself into the bathroom in the hallway and getting a towel and wetting it a bit with water and then go back into the room where Colt is but Sebastian has gone away, perhaps to leave us alone to talk. However, this time the door stays open just in case he starts to think something is going to happen.