Deal With The Devil - S01 E83

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Deal With The Devil - S01 E83

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 83

❝Kiss me sweetly, kiss me harder❞

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My eyes stare at the door that Sebastian has just walked out of before, shocked and surprised and horrified of the things that have happened. If I could walk right about now, I would run after him and tell him that none of that happened but I can't think of that now. All that is running through my mind are the words that he just said. Paid actor. I don't understand that. Colt is a paid actor? That doesn't fit, none of this does and I'm more confused now than ever. But, I have been confused so often today and these past days have been rather confusing to me.

I don't think I will ever make sense of everything. I'm not going to cry, I can't cry. If I cry, I will become the one that I was before and I'm not that girl anymore. I've matured and I've grown (not in age though as I'm still eighteen) into another person. Though the one that I was is still inside and begs to be let out. That me was one that always fired about everything. I did cry when he was beating up Colt but I'm not going to continue to cry. 7

I need to be strong. Not only to get through this but also to make myself feel better. I sigh as I sit down and go under the covers as I'm still wearing panties and a bra as my clothes are in Colt's room and there is no way that I'm going to be able to stand up and walk to get them. In truth there is no where that I can walk right now. So all I have are my thoughts here inside and my thoughts are wondering about Colt, not only how he's doing and if he's alive but also at what Sebastian meant that he's a paid actor.

None of this makes sense at all and it's strange to think that he's a paid actor, in what way would he be a paid actor? I feel this heartache inside me as I realize that I've been betrayed. Not only by Colt as he's this paid actor but also by Sebastian because... well, everything that has happened. Somehow I can connect everything to him and in that sense it's easy to blame him for this. However, I can't blame him for everything. 1

I made him angry, alongside Colt but I still made him angry and I saw hurt in his eyes, hurt that I hate to see in his eyes. The eyes that I've fallen so deep in love with that I never want to fall out of love, not that it is even possible for me right now but he pushes my buttons in ways that no other does and I'm pretty sure I do the same to him in some ways. I suppose we are a couple that should not be together but we are together, yet that was by force.

Once again sighing I find myself in boredom. I don't hear anyone around in the hallways nor footsteps as I'm all alone here. Wanting nothing more than to have his arms around me but he isn't here and I feel myself cold, even when I'm under the covers but cold in the way that I need him. My body longs for him in more ways than one and I crave his touch more than I've ever craved anything in my entire life and I feel my heart call out to him but he doesn't hear it.

Nor do I know if his heart feels the same way, I wonder if he will now never look at me again. That thought breaks my heart. He truly believes that I actually slept with Colt but I would never do that, ever. Though, I must admit that Colt is a rather handsome and nice guy who has a body that any girl could want but he isn't my type. Not that I know what my type is. I suppose my type would be Sebastian. I wonder why every one of my thoughts always turn to Sebastian, it's a miracle on how that is possible.

But I'm not going to complain. I like thinking about him and his beautiful striking emerald green eyes. Like the jewel itself it pulls you towards it to the point where you don't ever want to look away but it's also precious that you don't want to spoil it but make sure that it's protected and safe. Sebastian is one confusing man, however I find myself wanting nothing more than being confused as he is the one that is doing it and everything that he does, he fills me up with love and confusion but I like it.

The door then opens and the man that I was just thinking about walks inside. He looks at me dead in the eyes as he walks over to the bed and sits down. I open my mouth to say something but he raises one of his hand which makes me close my mouth. His hand goes under my chin and lifts my head up to meet his and when I look into his eyes once again I feel myself grow nervous yet I feel alive. Before I could do anything he leans in and captures my lips into his.

The kiss is sweet and his lips taste of heaven and even when I'm a bad kisser he doesn't mind, I think. He tastes of peppermint. His lips are possessive but caring at the same time as the kiss is gentle but rough. His hand runs down to my lower back and supports me while his other hand caresses my hair as he kisses me. One of my hands caresses his cheek while the other hand goes to the back of his neck and pulls him even deeper into the kiss by his hair, his soft hair that I love running my fingers through.