Deal With The Devil - S01 E39

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Deal With The Devil - S01 E39

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 39

❝The name is hers❞

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I promised myself that I would not cry anymore but I lately I've failed at that but that isn't the only thing that I've failed at. I was about to slap him. Who am I? It's like I don't even recognize myself anymore. I'm doing things that I would never do and I do them without thinking. With a heavy sigh I sit down on the couch in the living room, and then I lie on my back with my hands on my face. This can't be happening. I thought we were finally getting to a good point but then I do something stupid like that.

I'm not going to cry, not anymore. Trying to be strong. "Fawn, you can do this, you're strong" I whisper to myself as I sit back up again and wipe my eyes and my face. I just need something to distract me from this. Putting something to watch, I lie once again on the couch to fall asleep as I did not sleep that much outside and I'm tired, physically and mentally and emotionally. The pain inside doesn't stop but the warm feeling inside doesn't either.

With my eyes closed I keep repeating the scene inside my head and trying to figure out where in my life I would think violence is the right answer when I clearly know it is not. It's wrong and should never be used. I find myself going over that moment over and over and over again without it ever ending and the more I think about it, the more I realize that I'm just so stupid. I stand up and walk to the door. I have to go apologize to him. I never should have done that and I feel so badly about it. 58

Even when nothing happened, which I'm more relieved than anything. I don't think I would've ever forgiven myself if it had happened. The door is open and when I'm outside the reality hits me like a wave hitting a cliff with so much force yet the rocky cliff still stands as do I. This place is like a maze to me as I don't know where to go but all I can do at this point is go in some direction and hope it will lead me somewhere. Walking down the hallway, not even looking or admiring at them as I do. That can be done later. 3

No sounds come to my ears and it makes the heart that beats fast in my chest become the only thing that I can hear, that and my panting. The further that I go, the more nervous I become and my breath becomes panting. I have no idea where I'm going but that doesn't matter to me as all I want to do is find him. Somehow I have this longing feeling rising inside me that I can't control and maybe I don't want to control it. I realize that this craving is something I want.

Without knowing the reason for it, all I know is that I do want it. "I assume you look for Mr. King" A voice behind me which makes me jump up from being startled. I turn around to see the man from last night. "Could you please stop sneaking up behind me and yes I am looking for him" I tell him. He just stands there with a blank expression, I'm not sure what that means but hopefully it isn't bad. "Forgive me, Mrs. King. You will find him in his office. I can take you there if you want" He says to me and I nod my head.

"Follow me then" He says and he turns around and I follow him. While we're walking I can't stop thinking about what he said. Mrs. King. That is my name now. I never realized that. Knowing that I was married to him, I never really thought about it until he said it to me. I've always just been Fawn Thorne but now I suppose I am Fawn King. That does have a nice ring it, I suppose. A bit hard to get used to but still I sort of like it. 23

Neither one of us speak as he continues to lead me the hallways of this huge mansion which should be called a labyrinth or a maze for there are more hallways here than I can count. Soon he stops in front of a door and then gestures that this is the door then he leaves. I stand in front of it, knowing that he's only behind this one door with it as the only way that stands between me and Sebastian. This wooden door somehow is the only thing between us and will be a problem unless I find the courage inside me to do this.

Not knowing why I feel this nervous and scared at the same time, yet then I remember the reason why I came here. Closing my eyes and taking a deep breath, I open them and knock on the door. Without hesitation I gently knock and in only moments I hear his voice call out to me to enter the room. My hand travels down to the door handle and for a moment time has come to a stop as I open the door and walk inside his office.

The scent of his cologne is the first thing that I'm greeted with when I enter his office but then my eyes catch him and they are only on him, nothing else. Slowly I feel my feet begin to walk over to him and it is as if I'm walking without effort as I barely even feel the floor at all. All my focus is on him. Sebastian sits by a desk and his beautiful emerald green eyes are only on me and me alone and my eyes hold only him. "I need to talk to you" I say to him as I sit down on a chair in front of the desk. A smirk appears on his face. "Go on then" He only says to me.