Deal With The Devil - S01 E27

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Deal With The Devil - S01 E27

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 27

❝Seeing him in another light❞

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My eyes flutter open. I lie on something rather soft and warm pillow and I feel so safe and protected. I hear a steady heartbeat.Wait... what? I look at what I'm lying on and it's Sebastian's chest. I hurry to throw myself out of his arms and I end up on the other end of the couch. My breathing becomes normal and my heart finally calms down when I notice that he's asleep and I realize that this is the first time I've actually seen him so calm, like he doesn't have the world on top of his shoulders.

I can't stop looking at him for some reason. He's someone else when he's sleeping. His face is calm and normal and being around him doesn't make me want to hide away because his presence is far too strong for me to handle sometimes but now I feel relaxed being around him. A small smile forms on my lips when I see him like that but then it dawns upon me and my smile drops. I just slept on his chest, with his arms around me. I actually slept on his chest. 11

What is wrong with me? But I couldn't help but like it and I feel disgusted with myself that I liked sleeping with the man that has ruined my life but that very though brings a pang in my heart and I don't know why. I look outside to see that it's late in the evening or night as it is dark outside and I feel my stomach growl in hunger and it only brings back memories that I would rather forget and never remember again but it seems it just comes back up again even when I don't want to. 11

I stand up and go into the kitchen and I only eat an apple, just to eat something because I'm so tired that I just want to go to sleep. I sit by the dining table as I eat the apple but while I'm eating my eyes find themselves looking at Sebastian who still sleeps there and for a small moment I find myself uncomfortable and I feel like I'm doing something wrong but then I need to remember that the man sleeping there is my husband, not by choice obviously but I am still married to him.

I'm not sure for how long I stared at him but by the time that my eyelids could barely hold themselves opened I knew it was time to sleep. I take a look at him and notices that he must be cold as he's not under any cover. I walk over to the couch and take the blanket that I had on earlier and put it over him, at least he will now have some warmth. I wouldn't want him to feel cold in the night. That would be cruel of me even if he's not been the best husband. 11

Then I walk into my room or the room that I sleep in. It is as empty as always and as cold as ever. Shivers run down my body as I lie down on the bed and go under the covers. I shiver and shake from the cold as I lie on my side and hug my body to be able to keep the warmth with me but no matter what I do, I can't seem to be able to get warm in this bed. I close my eyes to distract myself and try to go to sleep and forget this whole thing. 2

Minutes or hours pass, I can't be sure but not only can't I sleep as it won't find me but I'm unable to feel warm and I'm starting to realize that has something to do with the man in the living room that sleeps there without me. I fight every urge in my body to not stand up and go over there to him as I will eventually feel warm and sleep will eventually come to me. I just need to stop moving and just focus on sleeping and not think about this or him for that matter.

After I don't know how long I've had enough of shivering and I open my eyes, frustrated as ever of course as I throw the covers off my body, it wouldn't matter anyway as I'm already freezing and I just want to go to bed and I just want to be warm and I have no other choice but to do this. I stand up from the bed and in the darkness I find the door which is rather hard since it's pitch black here but I do find it and walk out of the room and into the hallway. 17

I make it to the living room where he still sleeps there under the blanket that I put on him but it does look like he has adjusted himself but he does look to be in almost the exact same position as he was in before and still as calm as ever. I hesitantly go over there to the couch and sit on it, wondering if I should sleep here with him or not. I can feel the war in my mind begin and I'm not even sure which side is winning but there is one thing that is winning over everything and that is sleep.

The exhaustion in my body is enough to make me choose and I take the blanket off his body and adjust myself and I lie down on his warm chest once again. And I wrap the blanket over the body of us and I hold myself close to him as I feel my eyes drop and the sleep welcomes me. I find myself being lulled to sleep only by the sound of his heartbeat that beats in my ear. Before I fall completely into sleep I feel strong arms hold me closer to him. "I will be here to protect you Fawn because you belong to me" A whisper pulls me into sleep yet his voice fills my heart with... love.