Little Lucy - S01 E25

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Little Lucy - S01 E25

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 25

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After dinner, we all retired to the hostel for bedtime.

As usual, I took my bath, brush my teeth, applied my night cream and laid on the bed.

A lot ran in my mind but I had no time to sort them out.

I had spent the rest of my Saturday in the school clinc still I couldn’t get the thought of Collette out of my mind.

I kept asking the same question: Why did she stopped when I wanted her Soo badly?

I was still bothering myself with tat question when she came into the room.

” Oh you’re back,” I slowly sat up.

” How are you feeling?” She asked, moving towards me. ” Do you still any pains?”

I was surprised she even spoke to me. Golly and I thought she was going to put on that attitude with me forever.

” I’m strong now, thank you,” I said, smiling at her.

She didn’t return the smile. Instead she stood before her wardrobe and began taking off her uniform. ” You should get some sleep tonight, Lucy. No midnight reading.”

” But I want you read with you,” I insisted. ” Don’t bother about me, Collette. I’ll be fine. I want to read with you.”

Collette grunted and grabbing her towel, she left me for the bathroom.

I’ll take that as a do-whatever-you-want attitude. Limping to my feet, I arranged the reading table, placing my pens and papers while I waited for her.

I heard the shower running. She was taking her bath. My mind began having dirty thoughts.

I could imagine her body naked as the warm water ran over that smooth soft skin of hers.

To say I was tempted to join her under the shower was an understatement.

Really, really dirty thoughts.

Fast forward, Collette and I sat opposite each other, our heads bent over our books.

” Focus Lucy,” she snapped when she noticed I was staring at her. ” Stop looking at me that way.”

I immediately returned back to my book but I just couldn’t help but admire her.

Never in my life did I ever think I’ll find a fellow girl this attractive and irresistible.

But that wasn’t the only reason I was staring at her. I was asking her questions with my eyes. If only she wasn’t this hard and deadpan, wouldn’t be hard asking her what’s bothering my mind.

Collette was a complicated human being. She’s a mixture of hot and cold. One minute she’s nice and attentive, the next she’s as cold as ice and as hard as nails. Her mood swings were frightening.

I feel scared to talk to her now cause I don’t know if she was gonna reply me or ignore me and I hated being ignored.

Like seriously…. I hate it when she ignores me.

” About what happened today,” Collette spoke all of a sudden.

I stiffened and glanced up sharply at her. Wait, did Collette just started a conversation? Usually I’m always the one who does all the talking

” Yes?” I replied, still in disbelief.

Collette eyes never left her book. ” I’m sorry over the way I reacted this afternoon. That was Soo out of character.”

Was that all?

She was quiet again. Then she continued. ” Let’s forget that stuff never happened between us, okay?”

” Why?”

She met my eyes. ” Why?”

” Yes, that’s what I asked. Why?”

Collette sat back on her seat and regarded me. ” Well… you’re a virgin.”

” And what’s wrong with being a virgin?”

” Nothing is wrong,” she answered. ” But I won’t take it.”

The silence in the room was suffocating. I was about asking her why when she continued.

” I want you to be happy, Lucy,” Collette looked away. ” You can only find that happiness in a man not a woman.”

There it was, out in the open. I suspected she was going to say that.

” What if I don’t want a man?”

She shrugged with a deep frown on her face. ” That’s left for you to decide, Lucy. I can’t tell you what to do with your life.”

” And I decide it’s you I want, Collette.”

” And I told you I’m not going to take it” she shot back.

I became angry. ” But you love me don’t you?”

” Lucy,” Collette covered her face with her palms. ” Let’s be serious for once. What do you know about love?”

My anger was rising but I tried keeping it on the low. ” I Know when two people are in love with each other, they share their feelings, they don’t hurt each other and they do things.”

” Things like what?”

” I don’t know,” I was clenching and unclenching my hands. ” They have s£x I think.”

Collette whiped her face with her hand and returned back to her books. ” S£x huh?”

I didn’t say anything.

She scribbled something in the paper and turned it to my face. ” Read this.”

I read this in my mind. She’d written:

S£X BETWEEN A BOY AND GIRL……proper

S£X BETWEEN A GIRL AND GIRL….improper

I glanced up at her. ” What’s this about?”

She laid the paper on the table and pointed the pen at me. ” It means you and I can’t have s£x. It isn’t proper. How else do you want me to disvirgined you when I don’t have a pen!s?”

” Does it matter?”

” As a matter of fact, Lucy…it does.”

” Then how did you lose yours?” I snapped at her.

Collette suddenly became mute. She began shaking her legs. ” Whoever said I lost my virginity?”

She was hiding something. I just knew it. ” I don’t know.”

She took in a deep breath and let it out. ” Can we just act normal around each other, Lucy?”

I said nothing.

” Lucy,” she added. ” Relationship isn’t all about s£x. It’s something more deeper than that. Love is a dangerous thing. We do crazy things all in the name of love. At the end of everything, when the love fades away and the screen is being lifted off our eyes, we begin to realize our mistakes. Mistakes we should’ve avoided but we’re too blinded by love to see them. Lucy, I don’t want you Makin that same mistake.”

I stood up and went to her.

” What are you doing?” She asked when I stood before her.

My hand held her face and I leaned in for a kiss.

Collette voice came into my ears. ” Lucy, don’t.”

But I didn’t stop.

The moment our lips touched each other, she stood up sharply and pushed me away with a loud voice.

” I said stop didn’t I?!”

Staring at her with hurtful eyes, I began gathering my books and pen. ” Now I’ve gotten my answer.”

She was puzzled. ” What answers?”

I turned around and glared at her. I was fighting back tears. ” You don’t love me as you claimed you do.”

Collette made to move to me but I shouted at her. ” Don’t come any closer to me. You always end up hurting my feelings. I never wanted to be this way but you kissed me and made me feel special. Now I’m here with the intentions of giving you my most cherished possession, my pride, my dignity but instead of accepting my offer, you’re throwing me away as if I were some garbage.”

” Lucy don’t be stupid,” Collette barked at me. ” Everything I’m doing now I’m doing it for you. I don’t want you to get hurt. I’m holding myself back cause I’ve made many horrible mistakes in the past. I don’t want you threading in that same path.”

I waved my books at her face. ” Well it’s too late cause you already led me into that path the day you kissed me. If you hadn’t started out the way you did that night, I wouldn’t be the girl dying head over heels in love with my fellow gender.”

Collette became quiet. ” Lucy I…”

Still fighting back tears I walked away from her and climbed my bed. She’s hurting me again. She just hasn’t realized it yet.

Next time I wouldn’t be Soo available for all these sh*t. I’m way too young to be this hurt. I can’t take it anymore.

Turning my face away, I raised my bed cover to my cheeks and ignored her.

She didn’t bother coming over to me and it hurted me the more. She doesn’t care about me.

I was just some puppet to her.

Efua came into my mind. Now I understood her pains. I really do.