I looked at Feli as she slept, a peaceful soul yet so broken. I had always known the impact of lying to her and I dreaded this day but it broke me to see her like this. How will she even react when she finds out that I had a vasectomy done?I was young and ambitious, had just gotten the secret service job and we had to let go of certain things that would prove as a hindrance or weakness in the near future. For me children were my weakness, I needed this job badly and to keep it I had to have it done.
Neverin my life did I ever think that I would regret that decision, I saw how my wife needed kids. She feels she has failed me as a woman and wife; but how do I bring myself into telling her that she has no problem and her dear husband sacrificed that one chance of making her a mother all because of a job he wanted to keep.
I know I am a messed up soul but I love her beyond anything and I do not know what I will do if she decides to leave me after she finds out. I looked at the time on my phone and it was 05am exactly, soon her alarm would go on.
After a few seconds it went on and she lazily got hold of her phone and switched it off. ‘Good morning?’ I greeted ‘Was I dreaming?’ she asked her eyes swollen I tried to hold her hand but she pulled away ‘Babe can we talk?’ I asked her ‘We do not have time Justin, remember we have a case to work on.’ She responded getting up from the bed She went into the bathroom which I supposed was to brush her teeth then she later appeared wearing a chitenge and my t-shirt. ‘In case you need anything I have gone to clean the house.’ She told me I looked at her as she walked off, she had become distant in a short pace of time and I was trying to really understand her fury. I know I was wrong but did she really have to take it like that. ‘Women need some space each time they are upset.’ My half-sister Priscilla always mentioned. But what if that space just draws them further from you. I blocked the thoughts from my mind as I got my laptop to dig more information on the mafinga MP.
***I love Justin with everything in me but as his mother I want nothing but the very best for him, I have been where he and his wife are and I know it must be very tough for them. I had watched how my husband had become distant through the years when I couldn’t bare him children and when I was finally pregnant with Justin it was the best years of our lives. But he had already started misbehaving thinking that I was barren.
When he came back home with Priscilla as a baby, I never asked questions. Not because I wasn’t hurt or because I wanted to keep my marriage but because I just couldn’t understand how a woman could be so cruel as to give up her child to be raised by another woman.
I loved Priscilla with my all, hoping she would turn out to be what I groomed her into, but she was the total opposite. A Delilah in our day and age, tell me what she had not done. Her character killed her father; my husband more than it did me. And when he finally died, I vowed never to allow Justin to go through the same thing. I know he loved Felicia but I wasn’t going to allow them to break each other before a solution could be found.
It was absurd at first when I thought of taking another woman into their home but after much thought and deliberation I decided I was doing both of them a favor and I would do everything in my powers to make sure that Chimuka bore me a grandchild. I loved Felicia yes but not as much as I loved my son so I had to protect my own, at the end of the day a mother knows what herson needs. ‘Chimuku.’ I called out lightly hitting her leg so that she could wake up ‘Yes mum.’ She responded in her sleepy voice. ‘Is there a chance that my son will ever fall for you?’ I asked her ‘Well mummy, from what I have seen; your son loves his wife a lot.’ She responded before yawning ‘I know that already.’ I told her worriedly ‘But nothing is impossible mummy.’ She said awakening me from my sleepy state ‘So what do you think can be done?’ I asked her ‘We use exactly what she does not do, we slowly get her husband away from her.’ She said in her conniving voice ‘I am all ears.’ I told her interested ‘Well we know Felicia’s weaknesses, she doesn’t want a maid and yet has a demanding job. So she has less time to play house wife, how about I play that role for her. Clean the house, cook Justin’s meals, and wash clothes.
Do everything she does not do. You know a man in love can only have doubts about his woman when he finds a reason to compare her with another.’ She told me convincingly ‘That sounds like a plan.’ I responded ‘I have something else in mind.’ She told me ‘Sure, anything to get you and Justin together.’ I responded ‘How about bringing over Priscilla’s kids, Justin loves them to death not so?’ she asked ‘But I don’t see how that fits in the jigsaw puzzle.’ I told her ‘Well if he loves those kids and they come over, I will be responsible for them when they are here. He will be able to see just how much I love kids and which man won’t fall in love with a woman who can take care of a home and loves kids all together?’ she asked me I couldn’t help but smile. It was a great idea all together bringing this girl here, she knew just how to get what she wanted and I was glad we had one goal.
I got up from the bed and walked to the living room, the house was clean and I spotted Felicia in the kitchen doing the dishes. Her back was facing me but from the little sobs I could tell that she was crying.
I watched her mourn over her marriage, I had loved this girl since day one and despite me wanting to ruin her marriage I still had a soft spot for her and I had to remind myself most times that I had to hate her if my plan had to go through.
She turned around as if sensing my presence. ‘Good morning mum.’ She greeted wiping her tears Her eyes had formed eye bags, I could tell she had been crying for quite some time, if not the whole night. ‘What is good about this morning?’ I asked her before clicking my tongue ‘Mum we used to be close, what went wrong?’ she asked with teary eyes ‘I am glad you have put that statement as a past tense, the moment I realized that you were just a man like Justin.
That is what went wrong.’ I told her‘I wish I was responsible, I wish I could tell you that I have a problem, that someone somewhere cursed me. But no, I can’t.’ She told me this time breaking down ‘Listen to me you hypocrite, you might lie to my son and keep him under your spell but I will not allow you to continue fooling him while I am still breathing.’ I told her Her tears dropped, she broke down but there was no turning back.‘ I will make sure by the time I am done with you your mother’s rotten body in the grave will be ready to receive you.’ I told her before walking off
DO U THINK HER MOTHER IN LAW’S REASONS FOR TREATING FELI THAT WAY IS COOL?