Must Read: Blind Desire - Season 1 - Episode 30

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Must Read: Blind Desire - Season 1 - Episode 30

Days turned into weeks and weeks into months.

Aunt Chime registered me in the clinic for antenatal, and that was the only place i visited apart from church.

The three places i ever went to were the church, the clinic and the garden which was also in the same compound. I’ve never felt so lonely the way i felt this past few months.

Henna was still angry with me, i could tell with the way she always reacted whenever she visited which was once in a blue moon.

The next time she visited after that day at her house was in my third month of pregnancy.

She came again in my fifth month and twice in my sixth month and i did not see her till my nineth month of pregnancy. She always came with gifts and novels to keep me busy and she never stayed long. She just asked me how i was faring, what it felt like to have a baby.

Oma and Ije came with her once and the degrading look they constantly gave me made me really uncomfortable and i had to tell them i needed to rest just so they could go.

I was standing by the window one fateful morning watching students hurry off to school as i usually did every morning. My classmates were now in their final year preparing for their Senior Secondary Certificate Examination (SSCE).

I looked down on my stomach rubbing it gently, i suddenly felt a sharp pain across my waist and below my abdomen.

I ignored it till it came again. This time it was really severe, i muffled a scream.

It came again, more severe this time and i let out a scream as i felt water trickle down my thighs.
‘help….somebody help me….’ Aunt Chime was not home, she went to her women meeting.

I needed help.

I slowly crawled to my box where i had hidden my cell phone. I turned it on and dialled a number.
‘hello?’ the familiar voice which i had missed said into the speaker.
‘hell…o, Ifeanyi…pls come over…i…ouch! I need help!’
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I stared lovingly at the little creature in my arm and broke into tears.
Such a beautiful child.
I thought about everything that had happened to me these past few months, all the mistakes i made, all the people i took for granted, all the advice i recieved.

I cried even harder.

Aunt Chime came to me and wrapped her hands around my shoulders.
‘its okay baby, stop crying..you should be happy at this special moment not crying…’ she said.
‘i’m happy aunty, i’m very happy right now….but i cant…i cant stop my tears…’
‘the baby is so cute, just like her mother, what would you like to name her?’
‘aunty, Ifeanyi is unisex right?’
‘huh?’
‘i mean, Ifeanyi is for both male and female isnt it?’
‘eh…yes, but males bear it more…’
‘i’ll name this child Ifeanyi…’ i spoke as tears poured from my eyes ‘her name is Ifeanyi Pamela Maduemezie…i’ll name her Pamela after my mother’
‘Ivyy….’ aunt Chime said hugging me.
‘she’ll always remember me of…of him…’
‘who? Ifeanyi?’

I nodded ‘i’ve lost him for good aunty