After d action,Bode started begging me.I could see he
actually regretted,but d deed had been done already.I
told him to go,i just didnt want to see him.
I locked d door behind him n started weeping.I wept till my
eyeballs turned red n my head began to ache.
I was confused,i didnt know what to do,i was just
weeping.I couldnt even pray,i never thought i could do such
a thing,i thought i was strong enough to stand.Oh my
God!…How wrong i was!!.
D next day was friday,i couldnt go to school.I had
headache,so i called my HOD to inform her i would be
absent.She promised to tell d Principal n wished me quick
I couldnt attend d burial nor singing practise on saturday,i
just locked myself up in my room n was weeping from time
On sunday,i was unusually absent from church.Some choir
members came to check on me after service.
They met me under my blanket,shivering.Now i had
developed emergency fever.
One of them quickly called Pastor Williams who rushed down
to my place with his wife.
They took me to d health centre.I was treated against
malaria, given some drugs n injecion,and was told to come
on monday n tuesday to complete d injection.
D Williams brought me back home n asked if i wouldnt mind
to go with them to their place,so i wouldnt be d only one at
home,i said no,dt i would be fine.So,they left after praying
I slept off n woke up late in d night.Now i felt like eating
something.I looked at my phone,it was 11.17pm.
I got up,ate bread with fruit juice n went back to bed.
I couldnt sleep.I was turning from right to left,left to right
on d bed.
Again,i remembered “Let him that thinketh he standeth
take heed lest he fall” 1 Cor 10:12.
I started weeping again.I thought i was standing,now i have
fallen.I so much trusted myself,i was so careless.
I opened my mouth n began to pray “Lord Jesus,i have
disappointed u,pls forgive me,have mercy on me.I am
sorry.Now i know better.Help me Lord.Forgive me Lord.Have
mercy on me….”
I didnt even know when i slept off.
When i woke up,i knew i had a dream in which i saw Pastor
Mrs Williams talking to me,but i couldnt remember a single
word out of everything she said.
As i was trying to recollect what she was telling me in d
dream,i heard a gentle voice in my spirit “Go and open up
“Ahhhh!.How on earth would i be able to do dt?.I cant
I didnt hear d voice again,at least at dt moment.D next
thing i heard was a knock on my door.
Who is dt?.I spoke softly.
I didnt hear any response from d other end.
I moved to d door,unlocked it n opened.
Guess who was standing there.