The Love I Regretted - Season 1 - Episode 20

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The Love I Regretted - Season 1 - Episode 20

I started avoiding Janet like plague but won’t stop sending messages that she’s sorry. I don’t know what she’s sorry for. I was not able to meet Aramide also, though we spoke on phone several times but she was too busy to meet me which means we were not able to discuss whatever she wanted to discuss before. The school management announce the exam dates and time table which will holding a month earlier than the normal time. They were trying to prevent students from being victim of molestation from masquerades and their followers during the coming “Oro festival” as it has always been the case in the past coupled with the fact it clashes with our supposed exam period. Funmi and I got extremely close as the four of us (plus Temmy and Rachael) attend night class, library and even church together. We were so close it was obvious to everybody including Janet who would still not relent in her messages and calls. Her case is turning to obsession as far as I’m concern. Funmi later became a Church addict as she attend every program, night and day and this made me attend all programmes too as she will always force me to go with her even when I don’t feel like going to some events especially night vigil.

Though she did not join any unit in the fellowship, she’s actually getting more religious than I am and I pray that won’t be a problem for me later when I proposed to her because I prefer someone to be rather Spiritual than religious. Religious people tends to believe everything especially if it’s coming from anybody that call him or her self a prophet and that can ruin ones life if care is not taken. Spiritual people on the other hand will confirm whatever they heard with the word of God before accepting it as truth. They don’t pray every prayer points as some prayer points are not Biblical at all. They’ll rather pray with the word. I want a Spiritual wife who can pray and commune with God not a religious wife that will keep taking us from prophet to another mountain. Our supervisor indeed indeed merge our project together saying he doesn’t want Uche to spoil his reputation. Though I sensed foul play as I don’t think Uche cannot handle the project properly, I think something is going on between them but that’s none of my business.I accepted the merge because I’ve got no option and I was able to do most of the work without Uche, because I know the more we work together, the more she’ll frustrate my life. My supervisor surprisingly took up the matter of the guys that hit me at the party, insisting they must be rusticated or locked up in the police cell. These guys are also in the final year and I wouldn’t want to see somebody’s life got scattered because of me, even though they might deserve whatever they get, but my conscience wouldn’t allow such thing to happen. I had to seriously beg my supervisor on their behalf before he let them be, before he reported them to his friend who is the dean of student affairs, and that might cause trouble for them during clearance if care is not taken. I became “friends” with these guys because of this act and I wish they’ll change for good. Exam came and gone but I stayed back in school to oversee the practical part of our project but Funmi traveled down home just like every other female students to avoid the “Oro” festival palava. She came back to school the moment the festival was confirmed over saying she was missing me too much. I do not allow that to get on me as I still decided to stay in my friend zone until I see a visible green light before I made my intention known to her officially. Two months gone in the second semester and I already have my project ready, giving me full escape route from the not dying Uche’s menace I thought. Janet on the other hand will not relent in her project of making me a standby boyfriend or spare tyre as she kept sending me messages that will naturally make me fall for her if my heart wasn’t fixed. I must admit, sometimes I do get carried away by her highly romantic messages but was always brought back because Funmi is nearly always by my side. One of her messages got Funmi so angry she won’t talk to me Funmi: William! Who is this?



Me: What’s that? (She showed me the text message that pop up while she was surfing the net on the phone. The message read “William my heart. Amy love for you is undying and I am missing your touch and kiss) Funmi: Who has the number? Me: I honestly don’t know, I don;t have the number on my phone book. Funmi: Whatever (She dropped the phone angrily and entered the kitchen.) She refused to talk to me throughout that evening, though she was talking to Temmy. She also disallowed me from seeing her off while she was leaving. I dialed the number that sent the text and a lady picked up.


Me: Hello, please who is this? Number: William my heart, how long do you want me to wait? Me: Please who is this? (though her voice sounds like that of Janet, I didn’t want to conclude just like that) Number: I am the one who love you and will always love you. Our future belongs together you know. Me: Alright, I have to go now Number: Wait now, I’m happy hearing your voice and will be extremely happy to feel your touch again. Me: Janet why are you doing this? Janet: Because I love you and you wouldn’t pick my calls nor return my texts. I had to use another number. I know you love me but you are being distracted by your new fling. Cant we just go back to that time when you’ll come to my house and have your dinner and we’ll have fun? Me: Things changed the moment you rejected me Janet. Janet: I did not reject you, I said you should wait. Me: No Janet, you said anything can happen in the future and I’m not ready to commit my life to pure uncertainty. You also said you don’t want us to complicate things and you never told me why our relationship then would have been a complicated one. Will you tell me now? Janet: I was wrong to use that term then, I never knew what I was saying. Nothing is complicated dear. I am ready now. It will be unfair for you to set me into motion and let me off like that. I’m finding it difficult to let you go. You didn’t even fight for my love for long. It’s unfair you know. Me: You still have not tell me what I needed to know, Why was it complicated then and what has changed now? Janet: I was confused and naive then but I’m sure of my love for you now Me: What about your fiance? Janet: (She paused for a moment) I never told you I have anybody Me: Really Janet, do you think I’m that dumb after all these month I’ve known you? Janet: I don’t know what you heard but I can explain myself better when we see. Me: Alright then till then Janet: So when are you coming over, or should I come to your place?


Me: Don’t bother, I’ll come when I’m chanced. Janet: That’s what you always say and you seem never to be chanced Me: When you are ready to tell me the truth let me know Janet: I know it’s Uche feeding you with those lies Me: Really, why will Uche do that? Maybe you should tell me Janet: I already told you to be careful with her, I told you what she’s capable of doing Me: Well I have tell you that the line is capable of going off anytime soon, because I’ve almost exhaust the airtime. Take care I terminate the call as I really don’t understand why she’s so unrelenting even though she’s engaged.


Maybe she did not know that lying is also a turn off for me. Why lying and not just come clean in stead of trying to dribble me. I put a call through to Funmi that evening but she refused to pick it up. I honestly did not know how to handle the situation because I did not think I did anything wrong. At the same time we are not dating, not yet though and I really do not expect her to be this Jealous. I was determined to wait a little more before officially asking her out as I am currently enjoying my friend zone state. Later in the evening she sent me a text message that reads “I am sorry for the way I acted earlier, I know I don’t have right and not in position to do so, but I couldn’t help it. Because of this I have decided to stay away from you till I get my sanity back. I’m going to cut all contacts to you, so please don’t call me again nor look for me. We are not into fight and I’m still your friend, but I have to clear my head. Take care of yourself, good night”. Reading this message increase my whole body temperature to an imaginary degree celcius which was enough to make my heart to start beating faster I could heard it audibly. I think my game has backfired because I felt I’ve pushed her for too long. Honestly she has tried, after all the green lights she has shown me. I think I’m now seeing the red.



I tried calling her after reading the message but she would not pick and I couldn’t bear my hurt again. . .