The Series Of My Life - Season 2 - Episode 13

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The Series Of My Life - Season 2 - Episode 13

GOING BACK FOR JENNIFER
I returned from Frankfurt Oder and started
missing the piece of metal. I couldn’t
understand why I panicked. It was true that
the gun could have put me into a huge trouble
but it also gave me a sense of security.
I sat on the edge of the bed and smoked my
Marlboro. The phone rang, it was Marko.
He said he was on his way to pick up
500grams of weed. I advised him to stay
back in Brandenburg since there were Police
hunt for a killer. He wasn’t happy about it
but I told him to remember the drug rule
number 9, ” When you suspect that the
coast is not clear, don’t deal”.
He laughed and hung his phone
.

Jennifer called next. I had decided to forgive
her unconditionally. I thought about the future
girls that would come into my life. I didn’t
know what they did and a woman would never
tell you what she did in the past. They even
hardly tell you their right age not to talk of
what they did. Almost all their pasts had
black spots. It was the same thing for men
as well but the rules of relationship were
written by men. They almost pre-exonerated
themselves from every fallout.

”I know you don’t have enough money to
talk on the phone, so don’t waste your time
crying or begging. I am no more angry with
you” I said.

I had decided to go weak once more.
Something I did once in a while. Life was
really boring when you hold yourself down to a
single kind of life all the time.
”We must always experience life both ways”
” Daddy” she said and kept quiet.
” How have you been” I asked her.
” They said I have lost so much weight” she
said quietly.

I knew she must have been thinking that it
was over between us. She must have skipped
meals and must have cried for long. She was
definitely going to lose some weight.
” Why did you lose weight” I asked that
silly question knowing the likely reason why it
happened.

She kept quiet for a while and started crying
again. This time, the crying touched me
deeply.

I wondered why I had abandoned her up there
in Bremen, probably because I caught her
making out with another man. Was that really
enough reason to quit after what we have been
through together. Perhaps I should have left
her back in Portugal and let her continue with
what she was doing BUT the truth was that
we met each other for a reason just like every
other meeting. It was always left for us to
fight hard against temptations that could
destroy our relationships whether marriage or
not.
” Stop crying, I will come to Bremen
tomorrow” I said.

She didn’t really believe it. She thought I
just wanted to end the conversation.
”You will not come” she said between tears.
I told her that I would come before 11am, the
next day. Her money finished abruptly as
usual and the phone cut off.
As soon as the phone cut off, I brought
down my small traveling bag and packed three
new cloths I had bought for her, I pair of
ladies sandals, toothpaste, toothbrush and
some other things I would need.

I called Joe and told him that I was traveling
to Bremen and that I may not return until
three days.

I picked up the small bag and opened the
door to the street. The cold afternoon breeze
greeted me. I walked all the way down to
Pankow U-bahn station and boarded a train
to AlexanderPlatz. Then I followed S-Bahn
to Zoo Garden station where the ICE Train to
Bremen and Hamburg usually load up.
The train to Bremen was ten minutes away. I
decided to wait on the platform and buy ticket
inside the train. It was usually more expensive
than buying it in the stores but I didn’t want
to miss the train while buying tickets outside
the station.

I didn’t want my little girl to cry on the
phone anymore. It was time to go to
Bremen. I told her that I would come in the
morning but there was no need for Jennifer to
wait until morning. She had cried enough.