Betrayal - Season 2 - Episode 40

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Betrayal - Season 2 - Episode 40

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Amara’s room
“i really don’t know what to tell you, besides my advice dosen’t count. Does it?” Amara asked after listening to all i told her concerning Benjamin and Mike. She truly was right that her advice dosen’t count, but i still needed it notwithstanding.
“i really won’t involve myself in your affairs any longer, just follow your heart” she concluded.
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Mike really was the person my heart yearned for and following it could bring my troublesome spirit to rest, but how to make Benjamin understand was another heavy burden which i truly didn’t know how to face.
It was very obvious he truly loved me, because he sacrificed alot for my happiness and even forgave me when i cheated on him. But my greatest fear was that his love could fade with time, perhaps when nature begins showing itself on me. The age difference between us wasn’t that much and i knew with time my physical appearance would change much more than his. Yea i knew it was a lame excuse but will he still love me when that happens? Can i risk waiting at least four more years for him to stand firm and be financially stable to cater for a family? What if he dosen’t get employed within that period? What if he later changes his mind about me, will i be able to make up for the lost time? Will i be able to fall in love again? Can i ever forgive myself?? No i can’t take such risk” i concluded thoughtfully.

“Campus love affairs are nothing but a fantasy life we create and plunge our youthful life in just for fun, Pride and experimentation. It mostly has no longevity”.

However, due to the great respect and commitment i felt for Benjamin, i made up my mind to be with him till the end of his degree exams, because I knew i won’t be able to forgive myself if he lost concentration because of me.

But Benjamin thinking all was settling for good between us began spoiling me with gifts once again. At first i declined accepting them, but he kept insisting until i finally caved in. We cooked, played and gisted like we used to, but the only thing i denied him was sex. I refused him access to my body but it never bothered him because of his forthcoming degree exams which he was preparing himself both mentally and spiritually for.

6pm, Monday evening, two weeks later
I sat beside Mike in his car, breathing quickly as i prepared myself to tell him my decision. Truly whatever agreement we were to reach that fateful evening will decide my fate and destiny. It equally was the last day he gave me to make up my mind.
“God alone knows our destiny”