Choose - Season 1 - Episode 62

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Choose - Season 1 - Episode 62

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“W-what do you mean you’re moving? You’re kidding right?” I ask, in hopes that he is. But by the look on his face, I don’t think that’s the case.
He shakes his head. “I wish I was.”
I take his hand and lead him inside the apartment. We walk straight to my bedroom without saying anything to anyone. They don’t say hi either. Which is either because they are too into the game, or because they see the serious looks on both our faces.
I close my door and we both walk over to my bed, sitting cross legged on it. My heart has never beaten so fast in my life. What is Luke talking about? He can’t possibly be moving. We’re finally at such a good place, how could he just move?

“What do you mean you’re moving?” I ask again.

“My uh-my mom. She said that the reason she was away for so many months was because she met a guy near where my brothers live. His name is Vince. And they’ve been dating for a while. Apparently things are really serious and they want to move in together.” He explains.
“Okay, so how far are you moving then? I can come see you on weekends and then Michael and I can move out wherever you are once I finish school.”

“I can’t ask you both to change your lives around. Michael shouldn’t have to leave all of his friends behind.” Luke says.
“Okay then he can stay here. I’ll move out to you when I finish school. Luke we can figure this out.” I say desperately.
I wouldn’t like to live apart from my brother, but I can’t be without Luke. Michael could move with us if he wants to but if not, that won’t stop me. Not anymore.
“It’s not that easy.” He says.

I furrow my eyebrows. What does he mean not that easy?

“What do you mean? How far could it be? An hour? Two? We can drive down every weekend to see Michael, everything will work out and-”
“I’m moving to England, May.” He blurts out.
I involuntarily gasp.
“What the f--k do you mean England?!” I scream.

“Baby, calm down.” He tries to say calmly.
“Don’t tell me to calm down! What the f--k do you mean England? How could you move all the way across the freaking world!?” I yell.

“The guy she met was on a work related trip here for six months, but he lives back in England. He’s the dean of Oxford, and he said with my grades he can get me in no problem. May, Oxford is one of the greatest schools in the world.” Luke explains.
I honestly can’t believe what I am hearing right now. Is Luke actually telling me he’s moving across the world?
“Wha-I don’t-I can’t-what do you mean? This can’t be happening.” I stutter, tears falling from my eyes.

“You know I would choose you over school in a heartbeat, that’s not the reason i’m going. Oxford is just an added part of this whole thing. I have to go to be with my mum. She’s with someone, May. do you know how long she’s been alone? Too long. She’s happy.”

“What? No! Don’t go! Stay here!” I say.
“May, I have to go. My dad walked out on her and started a whole new family, and my brothers started lives of their own. I’m all she has.”

I stand up from the bed. “No, she has Vince now.” I say, practically spitting his name.
I don’t know this man, but I hate him. I hate him for taking away the person that means everything to me. This man is ruining my life, and he doesn’t even know it…….
“May, i’m her only family that hasn’t left. My brothers already left and started lives of their own.” He says lowly.
“So why don’t you get that luxury? Why don’t you get to start a life of your own just like your brothers did? How is that fair to you? How is that fair to us?” I say, getting louder as I go.

“You think I want to leave? May, I love you so much. And leaving you is the hardest thing i’m ever going to have to do. Try to see it from my point of view though. She’s my mother. I can’t just let her move all the way across the world.”

“I’ll come with you then. I’ll move to England, Luke.” I tell him, and I mean it.
I would give up everything to be with Luke. Luke really is my world, I can’t be without him.

“No, May. Your whole life is in Australia. I won’t let you throw everything away for me.” He says.
“So what then? That’s it? We’re done?” I sob.

He stands up and walks up to me. He cups my face in his hands and strokes my cheeks.
“No, baby. Of course not. We’ll still be together, we just won’t see each other much. But we can face time, and talk on the phone and-”

“So you were going to break up with me when I was going to go back to Melbourne, but you expect me to stay with you when you move halfway across the freaking world? Tell me how that makes sense, Luke.” I yell as I pull away from his grasp.
“I was stupid when I said that, May. But we can’t end this even if we wanted to. You should know that by now. No matter what happens, we always somehow find our way back to each other.” He says.

“Yeah well there’s a first time for everything.” I spit.

Of course I don’t want to break up with Luke, and I know this is extremely selfish of me but, maybe if he thinks i’m going to break up with him, he won’t move.
“So what? Once I move, we’re done?” He asks, I can hear a faint sob forming in his voice.

“Luke you know how much I love you, but how do you expect us to work if you’re all the way in England?”

“I don’t know, May! But we’ve got to figure out a way to work. I’ll come here every summer, and every Christmas, and your birthday.” He says.

“Yeah, until you find a new girl in England, right?” I roll my eyes.

Just look at Luke, it wouldn’t be long until every girl at Oxford is all over him.
“A new girl? You’re kidding right? You’re it, May. There’s never going to be another girl. I want my life to be with you. Don’t you get that by now?” Luke asks.

“You want to spend your life with me, yet you’re moving as far away as possible from me…”

How could Luke say he wants to spend his life with me, but then say he’s moving to England without me? I told him i’d go with him, he said no. I told him to stay here, he said no. I don’t know what else he expects.
“We’ll figure it out, May. We always do.”
“I’m getting really sick of you saying that.” I tell him. “When do you leave?”
He sighs. “I got my mum to agree to wait until after your graduation. We leave July first.” He says.

“Don’t. Don’t bother waiting. I’m not going to stay in a relationship that I know will end in a few months anyways.” I say.
“What are you saying?” He asks, tears forming in his eyes.

It kills me to see Luke cry. It’s the worst thing i’ve ever experienced. I want to wipe his tears away, but I hold my ground.
“You know what i’m saying, Luke.” I choke.
“You can’t be serious, May.” Luke cries.
“Tell me you’ll stay then!” I exclaim.
He puts his head down and shakes it from side to side. “I can’t tell you that.”
“Then…we’re done, Luke.” I sigh, wiping the fallen tears from my face.
His head shoots up and he grabs my hands in his.

“May, please no! I don’t have a choice. I can’t leave my mum. You should know how it feels. I want to spend all the time in the world with my mother.”
“Yeah, and I want to spend all the time in the world with you. But I guess that won’t happen.” I say quietly as I walk towards my bedroom door and open it, signalling for Luke to leave.

“Please don’t, May.” He practically begs.
“Don’t make this out to be my fault! You’re the one who’s moving! What do you want me to do for the rest of my life Luke? Sit around all year just waiting for you to come back for Christmas, or summer? I can’t do that. And it’s unfair of you to ask me to.” I cry, not holding back any tears, and not bothering to wipe them away.
Before I know it, Luke is sobbing too.
“You’re right. I can’t ask you to do that. But I love you. And I always will.” He says.
“I always will, too.” I tell him.
I lean in and press my lips against his. The kiss is full of not only passion and lust, but love. This very well might be the last time we ever kiss, and I can tell Luke knows it. Our lips move in perfect sync for what may be the last time. We both pull away slowly and lean our foreheads against one another.
“Don’t stay until my graduation. It’ll be too hard.” I whisper.
“Okay.” He says.

I thought he’d at least put up more of a fight, but I think Luke knows too that it is what’s best. It’s not healthy to be in a relationship even though you know it will end in a few months anyways.
“Goodbye, Luke.” I say.
“Bye, May.” He says as he slowly lets go of my hand and walks out.

I stand there shocked. The only person i’ve ever loved is moving. And we just broke up. But the terrible part is, I don’t even feel sad. I just feel..numb…………..
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