Must Read: An Incest Birthday (18+)

Episode 7 years ago

Must Read: An Incest Birthday (18+)

“That might be true, but it’s not just your decision, he still should know.”

“Maybe he doesn’t need to know Anna. Think about it, he lost it when he found out about his kids, how do you think he’s gonna react if he finds out not only did we know about it, but we participated in it? He’ll lose his mind! He has enough to deal with.”
“So what, we just never tell him the whole truth?”
“Sometimes people don’t need to know everything. If in thirty years you still have a guilty conscience then you can tell him, but I won’t, and I don’t think they will either.”
Mom paused for a second and thought it over. “As long as he wasn’t listening outside the door the whole time,” mom said as she paused to go check. “Fine. We kept it away from him for this long, what’s another thirty years, by then, he’ll be too old to care.”
“I should probably get my stuff packed, don’t want dad storming back up here,” I said.
“This isn’t right! Why does Randy have to leave? I’m just as guilty as he is!” Rita said.



“Because he’s not gonna kick his little girl out, it’s way easier to send me off.”
“When he goes to sleep, I’m gonna sneak out. He can’t keep me locked up in here.”
“Don’t, all that’s gonna do is make him angrier, which is gonna keep me away longer.”
“So what are we gonna do, Skype all the time? I wanna see you!”
“You will, I promise, we just have to do this first.”
“You’re making it sound so easy, like you’re gonna get along fine without me.”
“This is far from easy Rita, I’m gonna be miserable over there without you, I’m just putting up a front so dad won’t see me weak. It’s gonna be hell not being able to see you every day!”


“THAT’S what I want you to say! I want you to miss me! I want you to not go!”
“It won’t be so bad. I’ll be staying with Stephanie and Chris, so it’s not like I’ll be living on the street. We’ll talk every day and we’ll still get to see each other, and who knows, this might help up, absence does make the heart grow fonder they say.”
“I’ve already had my absence, three months’ worth, I don’t need any more absence!”
“Rita, you’re making this harder on him than it already is,” mom said.
“Well I’m sorry, but I’m having a hard time believing this is the best thing to do.”
“Not necessarily the best thing, more like the only thing. It’s only for a little while.”


“FIVE MINUTES RANDY! LET”S GO!” dad yelled loud enough for us to hear from downstairs.
“I guess that’s my cue.” I said as I threw random clothes and items in my big duffle bag. “Don’t worry Rita, pretty soon this’ll all be over and I’ll be back before you know it.”
She walked up and hugged herself to my chest. “You promise?”
“I promise.”
“You never broke a promise to me Randy, you better not start now.”
“I wouldn’t dream of it,” I said as I softly kissed her forehead.
I guess she wasn’t satisfied with my gentle forehead kiss because she pushed her lips to mine in the way she does when she really wants me to know she loves me. Our lips were melded together perfectly as we embraced each other for the last time in who knows how long, which clarified why my forehead kiss was immediately shot down. Aunt Lisa and mom looked on without saying anything, knowing we were vulnerable and hurting, they let us have our moment. I grabbed my bag and smiled at everyone, holding my gaze with Rita a little longer, and headed downstairs before dad came back up looking for me. He was sitting on the couch waiting for me to come down, and when I did he got up and walked to the door.
“Dad, I know you don’t agree with what we’re doing, but we…”
“No I don’t agree with it, and I won’t agree with it. When you agree to stop seeing your sister in that manner then you will be welcomed back, but until then, stay away from her.”


He held the door open for me to walk out without even looking at me, no matter how hard I tried to make eye contact he just wouldn’t budge. I wanted to be mad at him for the way he was treating us, but how could I be? We’re committing incest and we hid it from him, save for mom and Aunt Lisa, and Ashley, this is the reaction we’d get from almost everybody else. I looked around one last time and walked out the front door, and no sooner than I was walking to the stairs did the door close and lock behind me. He didn’t even check to make sure Chris came to get me, but it was daylight, so I overlooked it. I texted Chris to see where he was, and he said he was on the way, which everybody knows means he didn’t even leave yet, so I just started walking until he text me back to let me know where he was. Ten minutes into walking I wished I picked a better bag because the one I had had a strap that was really starting to cut into my shoulder. I tried switching it to the other but it wasn’t helping much, being shot in that shoulder wasn’t doing me any favors either, so I decided to stop somewhere and wait for him.
It just so happened I walked far enough to be within sight of the ice cream shop that I was just thinking about where I was shot at, what are the odds. I was hesitant at first but it being daytime and seeing people sitting out there made it easier for me to sU-Ck it up and do it. I took a seat at one of the tables on the outside patio, the scene where it all happened. I haven’t been back since that day. The layout was a little different than I remember it being, but overall it was still the same place. I started having flashbacks of that night, from the guy drawing the knife on Ashley, to us wrestling through tables trying to gain control over the other, even the image of me taking two bullets popped in my head. I felt like a soldier coming back from war who had PTSD since this was my first time actually coming back here since that day. I needed to occupy my mind, think of something that would help me forget about what happened, or deal with it so I could move on, but without Rita being there, it made it that much harder. I contemplated getting an ice cream while I waited for Chris, thinking that would help me forget about what happened, but this was hardly the mood for it, that and I wanted Rita to be here when I finally did, so I just sat there and waited for Chris to text me back. When he finally did about ten minutes later he was outside my house, and I had to redirect him to the ice cream shop. I knew he’d be curious why so I told him I’d fill him in on everything once he got here. A couple minutes later I saw his Lincoln pull up and him get out ready to crack a joke, but when he saw I wasn’t in a joking mood and had a packed duffle bag fit for the Marines, he lost his smile.



“What’s up man? Why you have a big butt0ckz bag for a couple days?”
“I’ll fill you in on the way back, let’s get out of here.”
We walked back to his car and I threw my bag on the back seat and got in the front without saying a word. Chris obviously knew something was up but he waited until we left the ice cream shop before he asked me anything.
“So what’s up man? You and Rita have a fight or something?”
“Nope. We’re perfectly fine, at least for the moment.”
“Then what? You went from loving life to rock bottom in two hours, what gives?”
“Dad kicked me out.”


(RITA)
“Dad why are you doing this? You just can’t kick him out like that!”
“You two didn’t leave me a choice. Sleeping with each other, what were you thinking Rita?”
“We were thinking we loved each other and didn’t care that we were related!”


“You can’t love each other, not that way, not ever again. You hear me?”
“No dad I don’t wanna hear you. I love him, and he loves me dad, I know you can see that.



You can’t expect us to just turn off our feelings for each other!”


“It won’t be easy, but yes that’s exactly what I expect both of you to do.”


“Dad that’s not fair! I can’t be with the person I love more than anything in this world because of some stupid society superstition?”
“I don’t wanna talk about this anymore Rita!



You two WILL stop seeing each other!”


I was not gonna take no for an answer. “And what if we don’t?”
He was caught off guard, he didn’t expect me to say something like that to him. His face drew up with the look he gave Randy the moment he first found the picture. “You will stop seeing each other, or I’ll send him so far away it’ll be like he left this planet, got it!”
I could feel the tears start to well up in my eyes. He just didn’t understand. I can’t just turn off my feelings for Randy, I just can’t. I know he thinks he’s doing what’s best for us, but he’s doing the exact opposite, and to hear him threaten to send Randy away for good was it, I couldn’t deal with it anymore, I couldn’t stop the tears any more than dad could stop us from being together. One look at his crying daughter and he knew he’d gone too far, but he didn’t budge.


“Rita I’m doing this for your own good. I WILL NOT have it, it needs to stop! You can be mad all you want, but for now you are not to have any kind of contact with your brother for a while.”


“JUST LEAVE ME ALONE DAD!”
I ran up to our room and fell into the bed, pushing everything they brought us back from the trip onto the floor, I could care less about it at that moment. I cried into my pillow. The thought of Randy being far away from me with nothing I could do about it was the worst feeling in the world. Every time I pictured anything about the future, Randy was always there, even before we were intimate with each other, he was always there. I couldn’t let dad do it, not without sending me away with him. I know dad would never send me away, so I would have to find a way to play that to our advantage. I was so caught up in my thoughts and emotions that I didn’t know someone was in the room with me until I felt a hand on my back. I turned over expecting it to be dad and was relieved to see it was Aunt Lisa, who looked as sad as I did.


“I’m so sorry honey, I can’t imagine how this must hurt right now,” Aunt Lisa said.


“I can’t so it Aunt Lisa, I can’t stop seeing him. Why won’t dad understand?”
“Look at it from his view, his kids are committing incest, which is forbidden in the states, and he feels he’s been lied to all this time. I didn’t expect him to be as angry as he was, but I can’t fault his reaction, incest is one of the biggest taboos known to man, and it’s happening in his house.”


“But to send him away? His own son? Why?”
“He feels like that’s his only option. Right now the only thing that matters to him is getting you two to stop seeing each other, it’s gonna be at the forefront of his mind.”
I wiped my eyes and sat up. “I should leave too, nothing’s keeping me here.”
“Don’t do that, the threat your father made earlier about sending Randy away, he can make good on that. Do you really wanna force him to make that decision?”
“I shouldn’t have to! We’re his kids, he should accept us no matter what!”



“He just needs time Rita, this is a lot for anybody to take in in one day.”
“You and mom took it pretty cleanly.”
“That’s because me and your mom are a different case entirely. We’ve been messing around with each other since our late teens, and still do to this day, your father as far as I know has never even seen his mother or sister come out of the shower with a towel on. He needs to cool down, once he has a level head, he’ll be open to reason, and if he sees that you two are at least making an effort to see where he’s coming from, that’ll ease him up too, that’s why Randy knew he had to leave, even though he didn’t want to.”
What she said really made me think. I didn’t like it one bit but the way Aunt Lisa put it made me understand it was necessary, as much as I didn’t wanna do it either, I had to. I started thinking too much and it hit me again that I would have to sleep in our bed alone, I wouldn’t feel his arms around me as I slept, I wouldn’t feel his lips against mine, I wouldn’t hear him whisper he loved me in my ear, I was already getting sad again just thinking about it.



“How am I supposed to get through the day without him Aunt Lisa?”
“What kept you going when you were in the hospital with him?”
“I kept telling myself he’d wake up, that he would never leave me, and I made a promise to be there when he woke up, but this is different, he’s not hurt or dying, he’s just gone.”
“Just think of it like this, absence makes the heart grow fonder. When you finally see him again, it’s gonna be like falling in love again, you’re never gonna wanna leave his side.”
“I already don’t wanna leave his side, can’t we just skip the leaving again part?”
Aunt Lisa chuckled a little. “Ahh my dear sweet niece, if only life worked like that.”
I laughed with her to try and make myself feel better. “This is gonna be hard Aunt Lisa, I’m gonna be thinking about him, calling him, skyping him, I’m gonna be a mess.”
“We’ll help you through it, your mom and I, and don’t forget you have Tibbles to keep you company too. Speaking of Tibbles where is he? I haven’t seen him since we got back.”
“He’s probably in the basement. Tibbles would be good company, Randy surprised me with him when I saw him in a pet store one day and wanted him.”
“If anything, you have a solid case for being in love, you two have done more for each other in the past ten months that all of my relationships in my entire life combined.”
I sighed. “This is gonna be the longest few days of my life.”
(RANDY)
“He kicked you out? Why would he do that?”
“Because we screwed up. The picture of me and Rita kissing at the water fountain? He saw it. We left it on our bed for anybody to see, and dad was that anybody.”
“Oh geez man how’d you forget that. He was beyond mad wasn’t he?”
“I have a bag packed headed to your house, beyond mad is putting it nicely. It mom and Aunt Lisa weren’t there he would’ve took my head off, definitely some broken ribs.”

“That makes me that much more worried to tell my dad about me and Steph.”
“Your dad doesn’t look like the type to blow a gasket, but then again I thought the same thing about my dad before today, so who knows how he’s gonna take it.”
“Yeah thanks for that. So how long are you crashing for?”
“Hopefully just a few days. I don’t plan on being away from Rita longer than that. It’s already sinking in that I’m gonna be sleeping alone tonight for the first time in a long time.”
“It’s not so bad, at least you’ll get the bed to yourself again.”
“I don’t want the bed to myself. I’ve gotten so used to her resting on top of me I don’t even remember how to sleep by myself. Hearing her breathe man, telling me she loved me, knowing she was right where she wanted to be is the best feeling in the world.”
Chris looked surprised to hear me talk like that. “Wow man, I didn’t expect to hear anything like that from you, I thought you were gonna lead with how you were gonna miss the s*x.”


“I could care less about the s*x at this point, I just want this whole thing to be over so that I can hold her again. This is gonna be a long few days man I tell you.”
“Yeah you’re already bumming me out, you got me worrying about stuff now.”
“Good, that’s just a little piece of how I feel right now. I’m gonna call her when I get in the house, we have that video app on our phones, I need to see her face.”
“We have skype pretty much everywhere in the house, you can use that too.”
“We never made accounts since our phones have the video thing, but if I need to I’ll make one, it’s the only way I can talk to her now, which is gonna bother the hell out of me.”
“Damn this is really bothering you huh?”
“How would you feel if you had to stay away from Stephanie for a few days? It might even be longer than that, there’s no guarantee everything’s gonna be all peachy keen in a few days. I hate this man, I wouldn’t let Rita see it but these days apart is gonna kill me, and I don’t care how soft that makes me sound so whatever jokes you gonna crack you might as well…”
“Hey whoa whoa man, I wasn’t gonna do that. I know I joke about stuff but come on man, I’m not heartless. I know what you guys mean to each other, I wouldn’t joke about that.”
I took a breath. “Sorry man, it’s just all hitting me at once. I basically have to trust that my dad will be open to reason in a few days, if not, I don’t know what we’re gonna do.”


“Well I tell you what, if anything, you guys picked the perfect time to move.”
“I don’t wanna leave on a bad note, it’ll mess up our whole family, and everything’s been damn near perfect up to this point family wise. I just want dad to accept us that’s all, so I’m gonna give him what he asked for and leave for a little bit, then I’m gonna convince him that I’m in it with Rita for the long haul, and then
everything’s gonna go back to normal, hopefully.”
“Yeah, hopefully. Well if you need me or Steph for anything we’re here for you man.”
“Thanks. Right now all I need is a couch and a phone charger, I left mine at home in the rush to leave, I’m gonna be killing that battery all day talking to Rita.”
We pulled into his driveway and immediately I saw Stephanie sitting in the porch swing rocking back and forth while on her phone. She didn’t even look up until we were walking up the stairs.
“What took you so long, you left like half an hour ago,” Stephanie said.


“Had to take a detour, Randy wasn’t where I thought he was.”

“Yeah right, I know you did something, and when I find out what it is, you’ll never hear the end of it. So what’s up Randy, why the sudden visit?”
“I can’t tell you here, we need to go up to somebody’s room away from your parents.”


We walked into the house and Jim and Marie were right there to greet me. They always looked so happy, like they won the lottery every time they completed a sentence or something. Seeing Jim happy only reminded me of the mood my dad was in, and the reason for my being here, but I couldn’t let them know that, I had to put on my best poker face and get through them.



“Hey Jim, hey Marie, thanks for letting me stay here for a few days,” I said.
“Nonsense, you’re welcome here anytime, all of you are, you should come over more often, you and Rita. Speaking of Rita, how come she’s not with you?” Jim asked.


I didn’t wanna straight up lie, but I knew I couldn’t tell them the truth, so I went somewhere in the middle on a whim. “That’s the thing, we’re doing a little experiment, we’re trying to see if we can make it a few days without being around each other, nobody thinks we can.”


“Shoot I wanna get in on that bet, you two are practically joined at the hip. I say the most you can last is a day, tops, then you’re either going back home or she’s coming over here.”

Marie gave me that look like she already figured out I was lying. Dammit. I only said one sentence and she was on to me. Why are moms so hard to trick? It’s like to them our bodies give off green truth smoke and red lying smoke, and I was smoking bright red. Jim was buying it hook line and sinker, but Marie just smiled and nodded along.


“I’m not usually a betting man Randy, but I got $50 that says either one of you caves before three days. You want in on this Marie?” Jim asked.



“We don’t wanna take all his money, we know he won’t make it,” Marie giggled.


“No faith. Just remember I take cash, not credit card, not check, not IOU, cash,” I said.


“Yeah we’ll see. We can either bunk you up with Chris or you can take the couch, I personally would take the couch, it’s really comfortable once you sink into it,” Jim said.
“The couch is good, thanks again. I’ll put my stuff up in Chris’ room.”


Jim patted me on the back and walked back into the kitchen and to the basement, and once he was out of sight Marie turned to me with her hands on her hips. “Ok, so what’s the real reason you came over? Oh no, did you and Rita have a fight?”
“No we didn’t, but something did happen. I’ll tell you about it later, I wanna get my little area set up before I get too lazy to do anything.”