Crying Blood (Bleeding Tears) - Season 1 - Episode 13

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Crying Blood (Bleeding Tears) - Season 1 - Episode 13

LESLEY
Rudzi was tossing and turning all night so we only fell asleep on early hours.She was holding on to
me for her dear life.Now I know that this has really affected her.Its gonna take her time until she
can be able to be left alone..I watched her as she was sleeping peacefully.The sun was rising and
it was very hot..I couldn’t sleep in such weather..I tried getting up from the bed without waking her
up but I failed diamisally..

Me: Babe it’s morning you can go back to sleep.im not going anywhere.

She didn’t say anything but she closed her eyes again.I went and looked at myself on the
mirror.atleast those guys didn’t touch my face. But we have one problem.Im unemployed.

RUDZANI
I may have been through alot in life but one thing I never forget to do is pray.I know all this are
trials to test my faith in God.I was busy cleaning up the house listening to worship house-thoma
nga nna Murena…This is one song that lifts my spirit.It gets me connected to my spiritual self and I
actually feel the presence of God in my life
‘Thoma nga nne Murena ndi shanduke

Thoma nga nne Murena ndi shanduke
Thoma nga nne Murena ndi shanduke
Ndi tshidzwe
Ndi tshile’
I don’t know how I got in the floor but u was on my knees praying with tears flooding my eyes.Its
really a difficult path with alot of obstacles.Its not even easy but I know God is watching.I know
God will answer my prayers.Regardless the situations we face we should not cease to worship
God.

We should not for get to tell him how marvelous he has been to us.It wasn’t because of our
will that we woke up to another day but it was his will,love and protection that we are still alive..

And I know that it was written in the boom of Matthew 7: 7 that Ask and it shall be given to you,
Seek and you shall find,knock and it shall be opened unto thee. Our God is not a God of
disappointments.He is a God of restoration and prosperity.He is a God of peace and love..
I kept on praying until I felt peace in my heart.A lot of burdens have been lifted off my
shoulders..When I said Amen that’s when I felt hands pick me up from the floor. When you are inthe presence of the Holy spirit you feel like you can not withstand the feeling because it’s too
powerful for you..

Les : I’m not a saint but I felt the presence of God in here.
I just nodded..I didn’t trust my voice to speak.

Les: I didn’t know that I had that song in my phone.
Me: I downloaded it.
Les: I will keep it..It is one unique song that can get one in the presence of God in a matter of
seconds.It can even take a sinner like me to church
I giggled.

I felt sleep taking over my body.that is how peaceful I felt.

LESLEY
It was during the day so nothing can happen to her.I have to go out and seek for a job..I don’t care
what kind of a job it is but as long as it will bring food on the table for my Rudzani.I walked down
the street..I didn’t even know where I would start..There was alot of things occupying my mind.Im
at my lowest.Not once did I think life could ever be this cruel.Im a graduate.I went to school all
those years just to suffer like this.Just when I thought things will be better that man who calls
himself boss push me further into the mud.It bothers me how useless the qualifications I have are
of no use because of my own parents.Why didn’t they pressurise Ethan to go for this course so
that he can take over because he is someone who won’t mind….
I came across two ladies who looked like they were in their mid 40s..

Me: Good morning
Them: Good morning.
Me: I’m looking for a job.Even if it’s something small like gardening I don’t mind.
Lady 1: I have been looking for a garden boy for two weeks now.You could be of use..follow me.
I followed her.

Lady 2: Friend I hope you won’t turn him into what you turned the last garden boy you had.
Lady 1: This one is even cute..Look at his body..I can imagine the things he will do to me
I couldn’t believe what those two were saying.they were trying to whisper but I heard every word.

We got to her house after a while and she showed me her yard..It was messy so I got down to
it..She was sitting at the patio with her friend im sure gossiping about me..I thought I will be done
in an hour or two but it took me 3 and it was already 12 so I went to them when I was done.

Me: I’m done.
Lady1: Can’t you stay for long?
Me: No ma I can’t.I left my pregnant girlfriend alone..

She gave me the money
Lady1: Please come again after 2days.
Me: Okay Ma.
I took the money.

Me: I will take my leave now.
Them: Bye.

I walked away leaving them to continue with their gossip.

RUDZANI
I woke up to no sight of Les.I honestly didn’t feel safe at all but I didn’t want to sound like a
nagging pregnant wife so I let it be..I miss talking to Nani.I miss doing alot of things with her.

She
never called so I also didn’t bother especially after what she did.But I was no longer angry at
her.Im someone who can’t stay angry for long.I always forgive those who wrong me.I think that’s
what helped me keep up with mom’s treatment for all those years.Just like the Lord’s prayer we
should forgive those who wrong us as we expect God to forgive us for the wrongs me do…

Cooking is therapeutic so I went to the kitchen and cooked lamb stew and macaroni..Les walked in
as I was switching off the stove..
Les: Good afternoon
Me: Hey love .You seem to be in a good mood
Les: I very much am.I got a job as a garden boy.

Me: Wow that nice..It counts for something..
Les: yeah it does.But I will push until I find something stable..
Me: Why don’t you let me help aswel?
Les: Babe I said no
Me: Iyo okay..
Les: It smells good in here.What does a man have to do to be given food?
Me: I don’t know..Maybe eat me first.
He laughed hard.
I frowned
Les: Babe you are serious?
Me: I’m not talking to you.
I walked away to the bedroom.