Blemished Love - Season 1 - Episode 33

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Blemished Love - Season 1 - Episode 33

Grissel hit her head painfully. Then she remembered, Dane used his Dad’s lawyer. It didn’t occur to her to ask him for help.
‘Thank you. That was actually my plan to get the annulment papers from court and leave him and since the only way to do that was to stay with him, I signed the papers without looking.’
‘But you are still there after three weeks.’
‘Yes, because somehow the court said it wasn’t ready when I called last week besides I have my daughter so close now.’
‘I don’t know what has come over my son but I apologize for the part I took in all these.’
Grissel ignored his apology yet again. ‘So are you saying once I get the papers back from court, I’m free to have full custody of my daughter?’ Grissel wasn’t concerned about the annulment anymore, all she wanted was her daughter.
‘That’s right, you can leave anytime and apply for a copy at the court.’
‘And Dane is not aware about the custody clause.’ She suddenly asked.
‘No, my lawyer was discreet about it.’
She sighed heavily. The only thought that came to her mind was she couldn’t wait to see Tom. Grissel suddenly became tensed and sad as she knew Tom may never accept her back.
‘I would call up the court once we are done talking.’
‘Good and I know you also felt it was your duty to fix him but trust me Dane is beyond fixing.’
Grissel could hear him breathe heavily and his voice was laced with sadness.
‘Why do I feel you have something else on your mind? Grissel asked suspiciously.
‘It’s about Shane?’ He said with a sad tone.
‘What about Shane?’ She asked with her heart skipping vigorously.
‘I don’t know how to say this bu….’
‘Judge Reed, I won’t bite you.’
‘Alright, Dane blamed you because he couldn’t get over the guilt of not telling you the truth from the beginning.’
‘What truth?’ She asked fumbling.
Judge Reed told her everything from start to finish. Grissel paused and grabbed a seat just then Dane announced his entrance. She hanged up and wiped her tears. He was already broken when he left Melisa’s end so he walked pass Grissel.
She quickly hanged up and picked up Dani’s huge story book. Grissel threw it at him and he turned round with a glare.
‘Why did you do this to me? Shane was my son too and I had the right to know every decision you were making.’ She yelled on top of her voice.
‘So? Did you think about that when you suffocated him?’ He yelled back.
‘Seriously, you still carry this story around and expect everyone to believe you.’
And what is that supposed to mean? Look I’m not in the mood this evening.’ Dane flared up.
‘Mommy, are you two fighting now?’
Grissel heard Dani’s voice behind her. She turned around and walked to her.
‘Princess, go to your room. I would be right there.’
‘Okay,’ she rushed off after attempting to give his dad a hug and he ignored her.
Grissel saw him walking away, and she held on to his shirt.
‘Get off me,’ Dane shouted.
She let him go and started crying. ‘Why didn’t you tell me Shane wouldn’t have lived up to a year? I was his mother and I could have stayed home that night.’
Grissel cried and sat on the floor. Dane’s face became pale and he tried to open his mouth but nothing came out. That was the moment he feared, he thought this day wouldn’t come.
He felt his rage slowly turning into bitter emotions and guilt swept him off his feet. He dropped to the floor in front of her and glared at Grissel with teary eyes.
‘Leave me alone. I never knew you could be this heartless to blame me for a death you were equally accountable for.’ Dane tried to reach out for her hands and she snarled at him.
Dane saw the pain in her eyes and at that moment it was as if the plank on his eyes had been removed. He kept staring at her cry and his own tears begun to flow. Dane wiped it off quickly.
‘You sp..oke to my d..ad rig..ht?’ As if reality dawned on him, he started to shed more tears like a baby throwing tantrums.
Grissel looked up at him, she never thought he would be that soft but she ignored him.
‘I can’t believe the extra nurses and the tests you told me were just because it was your first time of being a dad was all because Shane was anemic and wasn’t going to survive in the first place and I just worsened his case.’
‘I’..m s..orr..y,’ He fumbled with his words.
“Sorry? For making me feel as if I intentionally killed my own son when you failed to be honest with me from the beginning.’
‘I thought you couldn’t handle it.’ He said calmly.



‘You thought I was naïve and gullible right?’ Grissel retorted.
There was a long silence between them as Grissel watched him fumble with his hands. She hadn’t seen him that unguarded and remorseful in her entire life.
As they both sat on the floor, their thoughts were all over the place.
‘I was guilty and needed someone to take the blame for me.’ Dane felt the need to speak up as he realized Grissel was scrutinizing him.
‘And you thought the best person to blame was the woman you swore to love and protect.’
‘I’m sorry.’ He weakly apologized.
‘I can’t forgive you and stay in your lane from today onwards.’ She said angrily and stood up from the floor heading towards the room when she saw Dani rushing off into her father’s room.
‘Thank you.’ He was still not able to stand up yet.
‘Keep your thank you.’
‘Grissel?’
‘What?’ She snarled turning around.
‘Lisa has left me for Henry.’ He said with tears.
‘So? Don’t you deserve it?’ She asked rudely.



His tears continued to flow. ‘I w..as.. ho..pin..g y..ou could talk to her for me.’
‘Why would I want to do that for you? You think I want you to treat Lisa the same way you treated me?’
‘I’ve learnt my lesson and I would never do that to her.’ He pleaded.


Grissel stared at his apologetic face and wondered how he could change in just a flash. Wasn’t he heartless anymore? Is he worth staying around? Her thoughts were all over the place.


‘Why should I believe you when you destroyed the only thing I ever wanted?’ She finally asked.
‘I really love Lisa.’
‘Love? I thought you loved me too?’
‘Ye…s, no. I mean I did but not anymore.’ He stammered and then found his voice.
She breathed heavily. ‘Was it all intentional to hurt me or it was your guilt.’


He stopped fumbling with his hands. ‘I knew how I treated you was wrong and when I met you again it was to tell you the truth but then I found out you didn’t mention your past to your family and that pissed me off.’
‘Pissed you off?’ That was my decision to make not yours.’
‘I know that now.’ He replied more calmly now.


Grissel rolled her eyes at him and walked away into her room. Dane sprawled on the floor for a few minutes and got up. He tried Melisa’s number several times and she didn’t answer.


He walked into his room, wiped his face with his pillow and his eyes caught the files which he kept under the pillow. Dane picked up the files and locked it up in his safe which he had no idea Dani was in the room.


Dani who was playing with his dad’s laptop hid behind the couch in the room when she heard his footsteps. She waited for him to enter the bathroom and she quickly went out.

*****

Dane has been extremely nice to Grissel since their quarrel a week ago. Grissel doesn’t want to have anything to do with him since she found out she might be pregnant.

That night that she went into her room, her headache and abdomen pains were weighing her down. She also knew she was a couple of weeks late on her flow that had triggered the changes in her sleeping pattern and health. To her it meant only one thing but who would she turn to when she chose that path for herself. What if she went back to Tom and he wants nothing to do with her.


She cried that evening while Dane rushed in to check on her when he heard the sobs. That morning of a new week her thoughts strayed to Tom but she knew he probably wouldn’t want to be in her life right now. She was still mumbling to herself when Dani came in that morning.


‘Mommy, you are still sleeping.’ Dani shook Grissel when she entered her room.
‘Shirley I told you I wasn’t well.’ She lazily picked herself up from the bed.
‘Sorry, but Daddy said you should come down for breakfast.’
‘I will eat later.’ She dragged herself out of the sheets as she was still in her pajamas and went into the washroom.
Dani followed her after a few minutes and met Grissel rubbing her belly. Dane had become soft and Grissel had made every effort to avoid him since they had that talk a week ago.
She stood at the door for some seconds.
‘I think my brother is in there.’ She said naively.